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10

You can’t get blood out of stone, Norma.

9

Luke in Every Episode → No Going Back
↳ How did we get here? Sitting in the snow, leaned up against a tree, bullet in my leg - but alive. When so many of my friends are dead, for no good reason, and I couldn’t do anything to stop it. Everyone we set out with, just…gone. I could’ve done more. And that ain’t up for debate. I know it in my bones, and I’ve gotta live with it.

10

Game of Thrones + references to Petyr’s childhood.

8

"You can’t just be the good guy and expect to live. Not anymore."

« I’m not leaving, » he says but his  skin already feels like a memory under my fingertips. I can see the stars, like I always did, in the depths of his eyes but instead of feeling like I am home, they seem too far away from me. He smiles softly and I can’t help but think about the moon, so bright and beautiful, yet so out of reach.

            I think of the past few years, of our daily dates, me sitting on the balcony, him flying just above my head and I wonder when I became so used to him. All of him. He’s anything but ordinary, yet he has been a part of my life for so long and I feel guilty for not telling myself, everyday, how lucky I was.

            « Hey…” he whispers softly and panic takes over me because his face is blurry and all I can hear is goodbye. It’s only when I finally blink that I realize I am just crying. He erases tears, one by one, long fingers as soft as they always were.

            I don’t want to let him go but I can see in his eyes, I can see in his everything that he doesn’t want to either. Things are happening that both of us can’t control and I know that if we can’t help it, at least, we can be there for each other. Now, I’m the one erasing tears.

            “I was there in the beginning,” he adds, “I’ll be there in the end.” It hurts me to hear the interrogation behind the words, it hurts me to see the doubt in his eyes so I nod. I nod as quickly as I can.

            “Of course,” I reply. “You’re the galaxy, aren’t you?”

            He smiles, corners of his lips slower than ever to move upwards, but I take this as a victory. I can see it now. How bright and tall he is. I can see the constellations he drew himself and I can see his bravery. I feel grateful because of all the balconies in this world, he chose mine to land on every night. I feel grateful because people like him are not supposed to exist but he does. He does, for me.

            “You know”, he finally breaks the silent, looking already half gone, “you spent so much time looking at the sky… Don’t even think the stars didn’t get printed in your eyes. You took a part of me with you and… maybe I won’t be there in the end. Who knows? But you will, won’t you? You will be there so… I will be too.”

            It’s hard now to tell where the horizon ends and where he begins. The curves of his body are getting so dark that they slowly fade away in the night sky. He smiles one more time and opens his arms. I know this isn’t his last smile and it makes me so damn happy because he has the more celestial smile I’ve ever seen but I also know this will probably the last smile of him I’ll ever see. My tears leave traces on his chest as I hug him closer. Now, he’s taking a part of me too, but it’s okay because I want him to. I want him to draw new constellations with everything I gave him, I want him to fly in the night sky and decide, one day, to land on one particular balcony. He can change lives and I want to give him the strength to keep doing it.

            “I’m not leaving…” he whispers and then, he’s gone.

            “No, you’re not…” 

5/ Tᴜᴍʙʟʀ Dʀᴀʙʙʟᴇs: ɢᴀʟᴀxʏ

ɪɴsᴘɪʀᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴛʜɪs (ᴀʀᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ᴍɪɴᴇ)

"ɪ ɴᴇᴇᴅᴇᴅ ᴀ sᴛᴀʀ, ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴀᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴀ ɢᴀʟᴀxʏ"

4

If there are gods to listen, they are monstrous gods who torment us for their sport. Who else would make a world like this, so full of bondage, blood, and pain?

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Charlie & Miles | 2.21

"Being a good guy sucks."

I made a very necessary reaction gif for y’all:

oops my finger slipped and I

free use of course!

want: Human Thor/Loki AU where they were raised in the same house, but then started dating ever since they began highschool and everyone absolutely hates that Thor loves Loki so much (because Loki is really manipulative and no one likes him and they all think he’s going to ruin Thor’s potential and chances at a happy future), but Thor and Loki are still going strong into early adulthood and Thor will do anything for Loki

And Loki has this really gorgeous lightning strike tattoo down his back that he flaunts or tells people about every chance he gets because everyone knows Thor’s favorite thing besides Loki himself is lightning, so in a way it’s bragging because it’s like a brand, and Thor loves to run his fingers over the designs while they fuck :D 

8

take this chance
'cause it may be our last to be free
to let go of the past and to try
to be husband and wife
to let love never die
or to just live our life

4

Smooth af, Yonghwa.

It’s so strange how when I’m alone, I gush and babble over my TC all day long and think about him constantly, thinking of things I want to say. But when I’m around him, the feelings go away, and I suddenly forget what I wanted to say. It’s as if my mind goes blank. (っε・`*)

This is so dumb. I always get what I want, but by the time I get it I don’t want it anymore. That’s not even my biggest problem right now. I think I’m stuck in this cycle of trying to find things to make me happy, but they never last long and they never end well. I’m just caught up in this never ending journey to please myself and possibly find out who I am. And of course by the time I find something that’s not just a distraction, but is something I can’t go a day without thinking about, all the things I’ve done to lead me to that person fuck up all my chances of keeping that in my life. It just hurts. It always hurts and when it doesn’t its numb. Maybe I just can’t keep getting high and pretending I’m happy, because once I’m sober it hits me like a fucking truck. If anyone actually read this I just wanted to let you know you can unfollow me because I won’t be very active on here and am most likely to delete this blog. Thank you everyone!