People say words all the time, and we think we know what
they mean. One of my points, here in this reversal, is to show that what Helena
heard Myka say in the original Travel was not always, or even usually, what
Myka thought she was saying, and vice versa. Anyway, whatever. Part 1, part 2,
and part 3 preceded this. I was wrong about there being only four parts.
Christina’s hyperverbal, as you may recall… I shoudn’t blame her, though; it’s my fault.
Flowers. Christina is holding flowers, but not just any
flowers. The flowers. Did Helena
drive to San Bernardino and ask Ed to recreate the bouquet? If Helena had been
holding them, looking at Myka through them, Myka would have had to kiss her;
she would have had no choice at all. And that must be why Christina has them,
why she is the one saying “these are for you.”
They are in her apartment. They are both in her apartment.
The last time anyone stood in this apartment with Myka was… two years ago?
Yes, when Claudia brought paperwork that Pete had accidentally scooped up off
the printer along with several copies of his “top ten taco trucks” list. (His
clients always ask him for an updated list, and he always obliges.) Myka had
fully expected to resent, at least for the first little while of this
unfamiliar invasion, the simple fact of it; she had expected to need time to
process the presence of other people, to think her way around in it until she
She was wrong. Her shoulders, which had been tense and
square as a coat hanger, relaxed in the time it took her to carry the flowers
from foyer to kitchen. Her socks are orange and dinner might be a failure
anyway, but Helena is now standing in Myka’s kitchen, holding a wineglass, and
Myka cannot cast her mind back to a time when that did not already mean that
the world was in balance.