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Re: Men and Money ask.

I think its in poor taste to joke about it on here, but many teenagers (myself included) often have stability in mind when we consider marriage. I live in one of the poorest regions in my city; almost everyone is collecting government assistance (even my father), the power gets shut off so often that we have a designated neighbor to climb up the pole and jerry rig it when we can’t pay, the water runs white, there’s never enough food on the table, the grass is dead, ect. I don’t want to live like this anymore, and neither do many kids of both sexes that are stuck here too.

No, I wouldn’t be predominately superficial, and if I had to choose between someone I loved and someone who could take care of me, I would obviously go for someone I can see spending the rest of their life with me happily. But honestly the guys around here just don’t care about themselves or anyone else. The ones that do rarely get out anyway.

This sounds so much worse out loud, but I have to do what I have to do for myself and my future children. I want them to have beds that aren’t filthy mattresses with old sheets. I don’t want them to go hungry or sneak food home from school. I want to know that every time they leave the house, they are going to come back.

I am trying to get my education as well. I’m in advanced programs, get decent grades, and can probably afford community college by scraping together scholarships and a Pell Grant. I’m not going to bet all my money on one horse. Should I not find anyone who can actually support me, I won’t just lay down and die. But I have to keep my best interest in mind.

Yes, I am shallow. Yeah, probably a gold digger too, really. Call me whatever you want and then some. But when I look at some of the little kids around here with 3rd generation hand me downs and no meat on their bones, at the women whose drunkered husbands come home and slap them and their kids around, at my friends who either took to dealing or selling themselves to get by, at my own father who won’t even try to go out and look for a job or ANY source of income to try to support his children, I may feel shame, but I feel no remorse for wanting to run away from it.

I believe I found
a trace of life
beneath all my scars.

I believe I can see
the end of this me
and maybe there’s a beginning
after that ending scene.

I hope you’ll be here
stay with me
until we can touch the sky
together
be free.

I hope there’s a truth
deep down behind all the lies.

I can feel the change.
I can feel the spaces in-between.

I can feel the sky.

I can feel your simple touch.
Your hand against my hand.
Your fingers touching mine.

Baby it’s our time.
It’s time to be free.

—  celtic-poetry, Let Go

I can’t wait to go see Home! It’s supposed to be a good movie!

Is about 15 minutes I’m gonna go pick up my coat I left at a party at this girls house. I got her number a few days ago and we started talking and it turns out it’s her birthday today too! We’re both 16! I got her a present and a card but we’re pretty much strangers so I hope she likes it haha!

duginabag asked:

If you've been asked this before then sorry, but how long do you think you'll make youtube videos? Until it stops being fun? Or would you continue anyway with it being an income?

It has its unfun moments as it is, but I think even if I move on in life I’ll still make videos. It’s my creative outlet. Even if it means only one video a year, I can’t imagine my life without YouTube. But we’ll see!

James Norton photographed by Ian Derry. Gorgeous. :)

From The Observer Magazine, May 3 (and wow, I really can’t wait to see Life in Squares =James/everyone. ):

When he took the part of rapist Tommy Lee Royce in Happy Valley, James Norton was warned to expect strong reactions. “One woman grabbed me by the neck and said: ‘You’re a rotter.’ And a girl at a festival who was dancing with her friends let out a big yelp,” he says. Thankfully his next role was in detective drama Grantchester, as a vicar who solves crimes - “a lovely man”. So what’s next? As well as appearing in BBC adaptations of War & Peace and Lady Chatterley’s Lover, Norton is set to play painter Duncan Grant in the new drama series Life in Squares. Wasn’t he quite the lothario? “The main thing that seemed to unite the Bloomsbury group was wanting to have sex with Duncan Grant.”
Favourite current show: House of Cards. Kevin Spacey’s sort of shameless in it, and I really love that.
Favourite childhood TV: Charlie Chalk, which was about a clown living in a jungle - it was very comforting and warm.
TV crush: Anne from Neighbours - Karl Kennedy’s daughter.
Guilty Pleasure: Homes Under the Hammer. I try to do 20 minutes every morning, when I’m supposed to be reading a script.

it's finally my birthday yesssssss

YOUNG AND FREE, JUST TURNED 17 OHHHH YEAHHHHHHH I CAN DANCE I CAN DANCE YEEEE HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE WHOA OHHHHHH SEE THAT GIRL YOUNG AND FREE SHE’S THE DANCING QUEEEEEEEN

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I am so, so sorry. (x,x)

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kind of part of this au that i have in my head that i might eventually write, but for right now there’s this.