“Probably the only thing I knew with complete clarity was that I wanted to be an actor. But there was a lot of rejection early on, and so it never felt like, Hey, I’ve got something here. There was always an element of me that needed to prove something to myself. It’s something I don’t want to get rid of, because it’s what drives me. I’m never settled and I’m never satisfied.” - Leonardo DiCaprio
Okay. For the last time. I, Anya, want to marry you, Xander, because I love you and I’ll always love you. And before I knew you, I was like a completely different person. Not even a person, really. And I had seen what love could do to people, and it was hurt and sadness. Alone was better. And then, suddenly there was you, and… you knew me. You saw me, and it was this… thing. You make me feel safe and warm. So, I get it now. I finally get love, Xander. I really do.
what would exo be like as boyfriends (please include luhan and kris). i love your blog<3 greets from germany
Thanks hehe. Greetings from Holland ^-^ ( I always include fanfan and deer so)
Chanyeol: I think channel would be a the clingy type. He would always want to hang out with you, if he finds a new place to visit you would be the first person on his list to go with. He will like doing new things with him. Chanyeol would attempt aegyo when you disagree with him but will try his best to not get into any fights. He also mentioned liking girls under 160cm so if you are under that height he will hug you when ever he possibly can. Just a very cute type of boyfriend.
Baekhyun: The almost perfect boyfriend. Baekhyun will get along with your friends and everyone will constantly tell you how jealous they are off you. He will get annoying at times as he will always say dumb jokes however when you are serious he will immediately stop and listen to you.
Sehun: He will seem mean and cold at times but when he is in a good mood he can be just as annoying as Baekhyun. He will always make fu off you but will never mean it, when you get hurt he will apologise right after. When you two are out heads will turn and he will always take pride in that shooting you a proud smile. You two will always have playful fights about the strangest things, such as which bubble tea flavour is better.
D.O:The adorable boyfriend. D.O will always take care of you and will try his best to make you as comfortable as possible. He will always worry if his bad vision will bother you but obviously you wouldn’t mind so he will just be his squishy self around you. And of course he will cook for you. He will often bitch about the other members to you too.
Suho:The everything you need boyfriend. He will be understanding and loving, he will of course embarrass you at times with his awkwardness but in the end its kind off adorable. He won’t ever forget any important dates such as you birthday and your year anniversary. Suho will definitely shower you with gifts even when its not needed.
Kai:The skinship boy friend. Kai will love holding your hand or kissing your cheek when you are on dates. He will always show you how much he loves you. If you ever get hate on your appearance Kai will convince you otherwise in no time. He will definitely make you feel like the most important girl on the planet.
Luhan:The manly boyfriend. He will always try and prove how masculine he is to you. Whenever guys are around you he won’t be embarrassed to show that he isn’t happy. He will always help you and won’t hesitate when you ask of something. He will always take you out and you two will have the cutest-manliest dates.
Tao: Tao will be very scared dating you as he knows that you will get hate. I think when you do get hate Tao will get more hurt than you. He will try to protect you from anything in this world that might hurt you. Shopping together will become a weekly activity. He will definitely be an amazing boyfriend.
Yi fan: Oh dorky dork boyfriend. He will always post pictures of you two looking like the perfect couple. However in real life he will always fail at flirting and will make cute mistakes when trying to be manly. He won’t ever try to not mention his height and will always try to play basketball with you. Yi fan will pick you up and put you on his shoulders so you can score. I think he will be a very cute and attractive boyfriend.
Lay: Lay will love everything about you. He will always mention how perfect you are to him. Just like Tao he will be a bit over the top about over protecting you from the world. He will take you out on dates and will enjoy every single minute when around you.
Chen: This boy will troll you so much. He will love pranking you to see your reaction. Whenever you get tired and angry he will follow you apologising while laughing. He will try and compliment you but will always end up laughing. He will take you out on dates to places like amusement parks and parks were you two can just mess about.
Xiumin: The quiet boyfriend. He will be shy around you but will hug you from behind very often. He will prefer dates at private places like home where not many can see since he is a celebrity. He will hate hiding you but he knows he has too because otherwise you will get hurt. He will be the most adorable boyfriend ever, while sometimes showing his incredibly shameless behaviour.
Aries: literally will straight up do anything to get them back
Taurus: make them jealous
Gemini: ex who? they’re already over their ex’s lolol
Cancer: same as pisces except brings up good emotional memories in hopes to get their ex bf/gf back to them
Leo: waits for them to come crawling back to them and in the mean time try and get them jealous and show what they’re missing out on and it usually works
Virgo: doesn’t do anything lol
Libra: onto to the next one ;);)(;
Scorpio: fuck you no I don’t want you back…. wait don’t leave
Sagittarius: HEY YOU YA I WANT YOU BACK COME BACK HERE NOW
Capricorn: writes constant subtweets about them, always writing something to get their ex’s attention won’t do anything to get them back but will try and do stuff to catch their attention maybe even try and get them jealous
Aquarius: staring at you with sad eyes till you take them back
Pisces: constantly crying until they take them back
Okay so obviously I have a question. Here is the thing, I'm really into the feminist movement, I believe that all women should band together in the fight for equality and that we should all remain positive. Also, that positivity should be within or relations with one another, like we shouldn't pick on one another. But what do I do if a girl is basically bullying me etc. My first reaction is to destroy her, but I'm not sure if that goes against everything I believe and makes me a hypocrite?
I’m sorry you’re being bullied. That’s not cool. I understand that it makes you angry. Hopefully you can find a constructive and assertive way of handling this.
I think what might help in getting to that point is finding the middle ground between your thoughts and your emotions. Emotionally, you’re hurt and want to lash out, but you’re telling yourself that being a good feminist (something that’s important to you) means never being negative or aggressive toward other women and always being supportive of what they say and do (which is the opposite of how this bully is making you feel.)
Feminism does not require us to be positive and supportive toward abusive women. That is a myth which keeps us from challenging each other to be better. It’s always important to call someone out when they’re being harmful.
Another misconception that perpetuates this myth is that being critical of a woman is sexist. This is a pretty common thought because a lot of the criticism women receive is sexist. But that doesn’t mean it has to be. For example, criticizing Hillary Clinton for supporting Israel’s illegal occupation of Palestine has nothing to do with sexism, and it’s a legitimate concern- one I shouldn’t feel hesitant in voicing just because we’re both women.
So don’t let feminism be the reason you stay silent about this bully.
That said, being violent toward her or bullying her back probably aren’t your best options either. Find a way to deal with this that feels satisfying both personally and as a feminist.
So base on these bite marks, Kai hasn’t turned, n more than that he doesn’t even drink their blood to heal his wounds. Imagine being the meal for an entire witchvamp dollhouse but still doesn’t want to use vamp blood to get better, must be hard for anyone. I would like to think he did it for Bonnie. The old Kai was always hungry for power, but now he had a chance to become a more powerful creature, he didn’t take it. Maybe because he thinks Bonnie wouldn’t like what he becomes, he hopes that one day when he gets out he could run to her, show her his wounds and say “See, Bonnie. I didn’t even drink their blood. I did it for you, can you see my heart now?”, waiting for a compliment for his good behavior from her like a puppy, and then he asks to help her destroy the witchvamps. I know Julie Pig pretty much said that BonKai would never happen but at least I have the rights to be delusional, right?
About Davesprite supposedly disappearing, John brought the entire LoWaS with him. Jaspersprite showed up on it (and hugged Roxy). The other sprites might have come along too. Back when ARquiusprite went "power_level > some_value" the sprites had all gathered on LoMaX for some reason. They might have some instinct/programming telling them where to go.
yeah I wouldn’t exclude the fact Davesprite might have been somewhere on Lowas too!
Anon:what do you think will happen with the dirkjake scenario? it’s possible they didn’t break up in this timeline
eheh I don’t know ;v; i don’t really want to get my hopes up or anything..
do people always do asks on your page about the latest update and
issues with it? (If that came off as rude, I apologize, I’m not good
with phrasing) (Also if this is a common thing among Homestuck blogs I
apologize again for this ask because I don’t follow any other Homestuck
blogs aside from you) (Also sorry for all the apologies)
just like doing some discussions and speculations :^) (and I try to
explain some stuff if people are confused) but yeah it’s a pretty common
thing on HS blogs (eheh no worries)
I’m having these weird episodes again where I constantly assault myself with questions like “what the hell am I doing with my life” or “what now/where to next?”. Nothing serious but I believe it is somehow tied to validity and self-worth. I know what I want to be in the next five and ten years and that is to be an architect with an established firm that even spans brand identity. I know the type of practice that I want to put up and the definite direction at a set pace but it’s always the process of getting there that makes me really doubt if everything I laid would ultimately fall into place or if I am doing good enough. The kind of work I produce is essentially the manifestation of my worth or at least that’s how I would like to equate it, hence this blog; this space where I try to be as relatable and relevant as much as possible. I don’t really know where this is aimed at (as usual lol) but let this be a reminder to myself that I am trying and so far I am finally sustaining it.
Right now I am enjoying my three-week vacation and I am back here in Hong Kong where it is even hotter/more humid than Imperial Manila. I’m getting thinner, I guess and again, there’s so much to be thankful for. Hope I could snap more this time around for a project that I have in mind. Hello reader if you are new, thank you and welcome.
Is it odd that I don't want to fall in love? That I don't want to feel what every other girl craves? I mean I love my friends and family, but I mean to love someone more than that. I don't want it. I don't want to get hurt or to feel regret. I just want to be happy and love myself like I always have. Is that weird?
No it’s not, I totally understand it, but one day you will meet someone who will make you change your opinion!
I always wanted to start a conversation with somebody but I am in deep awe that he or she might find me annoying. Or what if I just can’t get the conversation going when in the first place, I was the one who started it.
do you plan to do what you're doing now for the rest of your life? Or do you eventually want to settle down somewhere, get married, have kids? Or just write books forever? You're so perfect!!
I have so many more things I want to do in life. Turn my books into movies and help direct them, start a charity, design, write books always, get more into photography, make short films, travel around the world. I could see myself marrying a boy who is as passionate and travel/ocean loving as I am, and then settling down on Hawaii and raising little tan salty surfer babies.
“Look, I don’t care what I’ve got to do. Do your weird hazing shit all you want, I’ll take it all. I’ve just got to get in.” Brandon didn’t think twice about giving it all up to be in the fraternity. It’d always been his dream to be inducted into the hall of brothers, no matter what it took. If he wanted to be on the top, he had to prove it, right? And that meant throwing away embarrassment and qualms and just fucking doing it for the sake of the brotherhood.
“I want to wear something cute but not too cute I don’t want to look like I’m trying to hard.. I want to look pregnant but not too pregnant not like I’m showing it off just so it’s obvious why I’m not drinking.. And it has to to super comfy for the drive there and not have a waist band…but I don’t want to wear a dress my cousin will make fun of me..but I always wear dresses soo idk what else to wear.. A skirt? I still need a black maxi skirt! can we stop at the mall on the way there??”
1 and 15 for the ask thing also your art is so good!!
1. selfie (the lighting in my dorm is super cool atm
2. what would you name your future kids?
i dont want kids but i want a fluffy cat named aziraphale and a black snake named crowley <3
3. do you miss anyone?
sort of 4. what are you looking forward to?
the end of this semester 5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?
there are a few people who can always make me laugh 6. is it hard for you to get over someone?
not really 7. what was your life like last year?
last year was actually the worst of my life to this point. my depression was at its worst and there where few particularly dark months that looking back were super scary. im very proud of myself for recovering in time to make it to college. 8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?
yesss omygods 9. who did you last see in person?
my room mate 10. are you good at hiding your feelings?
lol yah 11. are you listening to music right now?
i am listening to solstafir<3 12. what is something you want right now?
to pass my finals 13. how do you feel right now?
right now i feel okay but this week has been kinda tough on me 14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?
i dont remember lol 15. personality description
im feel like im self centered but also self depricating but i have a decent sense of humor and i try to be kind to people? i also have a strange sort of god-complex but my self esteem is like 0?
Some of my family is negative about us having children young so I lied & said I’m on birth control.. That way when we conceive they can’t say anything. It makes me feel so bad for lying but honestly, its my body. We are both consenting adults that know what we want in our lives. It shouldn’t even be their topic to discuss but my family can be pretty judgement/overbearing sometimes.
On that note, I REALLY HOPE THIS CYCLE IS IT!!!! we didn’t use any ovulation tests and I didn’t track anything besides what my apps say (which is usually incorrect anyways,) and we have been using Preseed. Come onnnn fertility gods! Every cycle Austin always says “I think this is the one babe!” And I can’t help but get my hopes up but we are letting ourselves be relaxed about it and its taken a lot of stress off of us.. I just can’t wait to start a family & its hard not to dream about it.
Thing I hate MOST about Facebook. People’s fucking need to post something inspirational (usually of a differently abled person accomplishing some phyical challenge) and then go on a rant about HOW if THEY can do this what’s YOUR excuse! YOU HAVE NONE. Get off your F*CKING (they always self sensor their curses) ass AND GO DO IT.
And I always just want to comment, “No. And go fuck yourself.” But these are people I supposedly like in real life so I’m supposed to be nice to them (or something). Like, why do they think it’s ok to use other peoples achievements as a way to yell at their friends? How did this become a thing that people regularly do on Facebook?
Any advice on what sort of extracurriculars to build up my cv/application for uni?
I think volunteering is always a good choice - you’ll enjoy it and it will benefit you as a person, but it is also a great way to show that you have learned new skills from applying yourself to different tasks. I volunteered within my school - I helped out with teaching maths to kids who were struggling, as well as helping so called “gifted and talented” students who wanted to get to the best of their ability. I also volunteered on a pilgrimage to Lourdes and I remember talking about that a lot on my personal statement because it gave me a lot of experience and skills relating to independence, forward thinking, team work, etc. Leadership related activities would also be a good choice! Have a look at what is available in your school or local area xo
“I can’t believe it happened… She’s dead. I’ve lost so many people in my life, but she has always been by my side, since the day we have met. I didn’t get to tell her about my feelings. I’ve always rejected her, trying to keep her safe. I’ve protected her so many times. One of those times I… I died… I once said that I don’t care if I have a scar as long as it can be seen. Now I have another scar that can’t be seen. Natsu… E.N.D… I’m sorry. To stop you, to protect everyone, I’m going to have to break the promise I’ve made back then. ICED SHELL!”