i needed to say this

You claim to love her, inside and out, but the only time you call her beautiful is when it’s 3 in the morning and I’ve already turned you down.
—  girls tell each other everything, c.j.n.
every boyfriend is the one,
until otherwise proven.
the good are never easy,
the easy never good
and it never happens
like you think it really should.
deception and perfection
are wonderful traits
one will breed love,
the other hate.
you’ll find me in the lonely hearts
under ‘im after a brand new start’…
—  Marina and the Diamonds


grunge/ lucid ☯


How could he forgive himself? If he knew that the Mark had to go before, he’ll try anything to get it off his arm now. He almost killed Charlie. The fact that Dean can’t even control the urge to kill when he is facing a friend is scaring the shit out of him.
He won’t get close to anyone until the Mark of Cain is gone, the fear of hurting the ones he loves is too big.

Love is drowning in a deep well, out of secrets and nobody else to tell…Love Is Blindness…
—  Jack White

I have decided to turn off the anonymous ask box for now.

I hope you can all understand why I am choosing to do this. I love to help and support others so much that I often forget about the person that needs to be the centre of my recovery: ME. If there is one thing that I need to remember right now it is that in order to help other people, I need to first be able to look after myself. Lead by example.
Right now I am struggling. Recovery is a daily battle, but one that I am not going to give up on. However, constantly receiving messages/asks, which are often, very disorder led is causing me to forget about my own personal journey.

I can relate to how the people who send those messages feel; I was there once, I still am in a way; scared, worried, constantly questioning anything and everything, but I want you all to know that is does get better. Not right away - it takes a lot of fighting, but it does. Each day that passes that you don’t give into those disordered thoughts, the stronger you feel. These storms too shall pass.

I will be turning the anonymous button back on at some point in the future but for now it has to go off. I will be making a FAQ page on my blog over the next few days so that I can still often some support but in a less direct manner (if that makes sense). Of course most of the asks I have previously answered can still be found under the ‘asks’ tab on my blog (I know there are quite a few I didn’t get around to tagging but I will try to get that done soon).

I really hope that you can all understand why I am doing this right now. I love each and every one of you and I am so grateful for the constant support that I have received since making this blog, it is unbelievable. I really hope that I can continue to support and reassure others through keeping this blog and sharing my journey. I am sending all my love to each and every one of you x

I think way to much about firsts with my otps & then I get all feely & I just feel like lying on the floor clutching my chest because it’s like a punch in the gut

The first time Gale looked at Cullen with no trace of hate or disgust, that it was more than just being able to final stomach seeing him but that she wanted to see him & did not mind meeting his gaze. The first time she spoke to him, no malice or disdain in her words, quiet as they were. 

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You’ll take me home tonight, we both know that.
You hold my arm firmly and say “oh please, don’t leave”

Don’t you worry. I’m staying here.
Don’t you worry, ‘cause I’m not leaving
Don’t you worry. I’ll stay here with you, with you