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Day 6: Favourite Album

It’s actually between Folie a Deux and Infinity on High. The songs on Folie a Deux were more sophisticated and underrated, more competent, whilst Infinity on High contains most of the catchy songs, and their biggest single, Thnks fr th Mmrs. (X)

Help Me Make Reading List for this Year!

I need books to read this summer year, and I need help choosing them!
(It got long fast, and I never read the books on my TBR list, so I think it’s time I actually start reading a lot again. This is my TBR list for 2015 or possible until around this time next year. Depends on how long this gets) 

Send me suggestions

  1. School Assigned Books
  2. Les Mis (main summer goal: reread)
  3. To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before by Jenny Han - percyyoulittleshit
  4. PS I Still Love You by Jenny Han - percyyoulittleshit
  5. Nowhere by Jon Robinson - kingofghxsts
  6. Ithaka by Adele Geras - chasingjackosn
  7. Blind Faith by Ellen Wittlinger - iamsolangelotrash
  8. The Coldest Girl in Coldtown by Holly Black - royahltee
  9. We Were Liars by E. Lockhart - royahltee
  10. The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman - royahltee
  11. Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte - royahltee
  12. Modern Tales of Faerie by Holly Black - anonymous
  13. The Darkest Part of the Forest by Holly Black - anonymous

“You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you’re doing, where you are, who you’re with, and if you’re OK. You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and protect you from your fears. You need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you, especially your flaws. You should be with someone who could make you happy, really happy, dancing on air happy.”  -  Cecelia Ahern



it’s okay to ask for help. if u aren’t able to live ur life bc u feel like you are setting yourself back because of depression, anxiety, ADHD, idk anything that prevents u from meeting expectations u set for urself that deep down u know u are capable of bc mental illness DOESNT HAVE TO PUT U AT A DISADVANTAGE OR DEFINE YOU UNLESS U LET IT SO if u have been struggling let this be a sign that you should ask for help or seek help or do whatever u have to do, bc it might be scary but I promise that it is worth it

take my word for it:
i had issues since I was in middle school, I noticed something was off or wrong but kept it on the downlow bc I didn’t want to believe it….
in high school I had severe depression…then an eating disorder…then I had existential panic attacks where I would sometimes have to be hospitalized…the anxiety that was always there grew into something that took over every part of me…depression was like a switch that could turn on at any moment…and at the same time (this was almost two years ago) I realized I literally had horrible ADD, and it was essentially a huge role in these other issues…and i’ll quickly try and explain my experience w an attention disorder:
i’ve maybe written one english draft throughout high school, and I’m out of high school now. i couldnt do homework, read a book, gather up thoughts without switching the subject...i never had the ability to grasp a concept in school. it’s like I could hear but never listen to what a teacher was saying…I even dropped out of school the last semester of my junior year from this fucking ticking timebomb of a mind i felt that i was living in, only to make up those classes later, adding more stress..it made me want to lose my mind. and I forgot to mention the manic episodes grew in, well, insanity. i had to realize that if i wanted to ever be successful or accomplish literally anything, it would take more than just a pep talk & some effort 

the weird part about my issues is how i really wasnt like…dumb, my test scores were well above average and i was always considered to be intelligent throughout all of school…so teachers and peers just didn’t get it, and for so long neither did I...it far surpassed laziness and i knew something was just wired wrong.

so i had to believe it and finally be ok w seeking consistent help…and i’ve seen three different doctors and ive been diagnosed w add/adhd, bipolar disorder, ptsd (sorry i didnt get into that but if u want to message me feel free:) and panic disorder/anxiety. so I was obviously put on medication and all I can say is i’m at least treading water now instead of drowning!!!!! I have fucking fantastic runs and low ones too, but a pill will not fix everything…so be optimistic if you are starting on medication for ur mind, bc every brain is different and at least give something a shot but i definitely knew when something did not work for me personally!!!!!

but yeah I hope this helped someone and please feel more than welcome to ask for elaboration on anything bc i’m more than happy to help u if i can :-) (brains can get sick too)

Okay now that I feel a little less annoyed about things i’m going to make this post. I created this rpg with the purposes of it being fun and welcoming for everyone and while yes it is still very welcoming and there are no cliques, I really bored of my own rpg and that’s not good. That’s why instead of making it completely freelance I added festivals to make things fun. To give characters something to look forward to and to preapre for. Yes I understand that characters have kids and blah blah but bands in real life don’t plan tours around their personal lives. It’s the total opposite way around. They plan their personal lives around their tour schedule. I mean take Lights and Beau Bokan for example, They take Rocket basically everywhere. She is always on tour with them and they succesfully manage to make it work for them. I’m not a super strict Mod and I had stated in my previous posts that for whatever reason you had to take some time off from tour, as long as you tell me or Mod Evan your reason then we will let you skip out on some tour time. We try to accomodate everyone and keep everyone happy but sometimes we just can’t please everyone. So for this reason, I’m going to go ahead and discuss dates for a small summer tour around the states with Mod Evan and when we have finalized and agreed on something we will post the dates for you all to read and then you can message us to discuss problems ect you may have. 

- Mod Jessica 

I learned just how precious life is today. From the “I got in a bad accident” text sending my brain on an endless spiral of worry, to seeing you lying in pain in the hospital causing my hands to tremble with anxiety, to you weeping heavily on my chest creating a waterfall that erupted from my soul moving downstream to my cheeks. It made me realize all of this could be gone…you could be gone in an instant. And I don’t know how I would…if I could cope with that. Because you are so precious to me. Throughout everything. All of our fights, laughs, inside jokes…everything you have given me that nobody else ever will. Memories I can never fathom to erase or replace. It’s terrifying really to know my everything almost slipped from my fingers and in the blink of an eye my life could have shattered. But instead our lives are broke . We can fix this. And I promise I will be here every step of the way fighting for peace to be restored into our lives and your spirit. God watched out for us today. Please drive safe everyone.

Mt. Silver

(Note: I posted this on reddit, but I think I’d like the tag to read it too)

There’s a reason the people of Kanto left Red alone with the God of Anarchy on top of Mt. Silver, silent and still in soul-chilling winds as another boy clambered through deep caverns, with a rage-filled general pushing him forward.

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Deciding on a Computer

okay so I’ve got a few options here. I’ve spent a few days glancing over some laptops but today I’ve probably spent up to four hours straight of just looking deeply into a replacement laptop for my old Toshiba.

Looking into it from an artist’s perspective, I was heavily looking into the Surface Pro 3 for a long while. But now I’m not so sure, after looking more into it. Even looking into a used Cintiq I’m not so sure.

I’m partial to having a laptop to work on. not only that but one that can handle the RAM that adobe products eat up and to be able to run those programs wonderfully. The fancy touch screen tablets where you draw on the screen sound nice but I’m not completely sure if it appeals to me. My intuos4 still works beautifully and I’ve grown quite attached to it.

Looking into the surface pro 3 there were some concerns with how things work especially concerning the pen itself and not having the buttons like a wacom tablet does.

I was also directed to the Lenovo Y510p which does sound super tempting but I’m wondering if I’m looking into something /too/ heavy since it’s also recommended as a gaming computer and for heavy 3d modeling work.

I want to avoid macs if at all possible. But I also definitely want a laptop I’ll be able to tote around with me as I bring my computer nearly everywhere with me.

some people have recommended Alienware but those tend to be quite… bulky for my tastes.

what I’m basically looking for is:

  • something affordable around $1000 or less [I don’t mind buying used if it’s ‘like new’]
  • portable replacement laptop, essentially
  • able to handle adobe products like illustrator, photoshop, after effects, ect.
  • maybe gaming?? If not, I could possibly be looking into getting a gaming desktop specifically for that and heavier artwork [my brother will rebuild his old one for me]
  • something that can handle a lot of multitasking
  • preferably has webcam/mic built into it
  • compatible with Paint Tool SAI 
  • I need a good screen that really displays colors well. My old Toshiba was not very good with this and the difference was astonishing when I viewed my artwork on other monitors
  • I don’t care either way whether or not it has a touch screen

It will be a device I will have to commit to for many years and I want it to be an investment worth taking. I’m not very good when it comes to researching laptops and I have people from all over tell me “Toshiba sucks” “HP is the best” “those two are garbage” “I’ve had the best luck with Toshiba” “Get an Asus” “Asus is trash” and just constant favoritism which I have no stance or opinion on either way. I just want something that works for my needs and works well. 

While I will continue to do research on my own and ask close friends and family what they think, what’s your opinions or suggestions on which device to go with?