I kind of find the whole “he saved me” (“while I was at a dark place” “he brought laughter into my life” “I owe him my life” etc.) thing that is so common in the youtuber fandoms a bit creepy. I completely understand the intent of such comments, and I understand why you feel the need to express them, and I just understand the whole concept. (hey, when I started watching Toby’s videos I was at a pretty low place myself, so trust me, I get it.)
But I think it’s the wording that skeeves me out. It’s the phrase “he saved me”. Is this a fandom or a cult? These people are awesome, but they’re just humans doing their job, and I feel really awkward when people raise them into the skies like they were motherfucking holy prophets.
And you know what? If you were strong enough to back away from a suicide attempt, or get out of that dark place you were in, you goddamn deserve to take credit for that yourself. Even if this youtuber and the laughter they brought into your life helped, in the end you were the one doing all the fighting. Give yourself some credit. A youtuber didn’t save your life, you did.