In 30 days I’ll be starting my new job and will have moved 500 miles away. I’ve been picking more than I had before which I expected. I’m counteracting some of the damage by using hydrocolloid bandages to help suck gunk out of my skin for the especially inflamed bumps. Finding housing in the District is very stressful and I know that’s a major reason why I’m picking again. I wish I were making twice my salary so I could rent wherever and not have to sift through shady Craigslist ads in search of something livable, affordable, and doesn’t involve creepy people or those with beliefs that significantly conflict with my values as a person. It’s disappointing, but since I’ll be working with HIV/AIDS positive folks, there are a lot of people who don’t want to live with me because I’m helping instead of condemning. Very disheartening.
I know the next 3 months are going to be an emotional rollercoaster and I need to prepare myself as best as I can to cope. I don’t want to have any major breakdowns or pickfests. I feel like if I can get through this amount of stress and better manage my derma, I’ll have made some real progress.