Ok, gotta admit I feel much better after watching the episode. For several reasons, actually. But mostly about the last scene.

- Fara and Max, A+ job this episode. It finally felt justified why they’re there. I wonder if when the show ends, Fara would have turned into Carrie 2.0 (a more equilibrated version, but equally badass, clever and efficient.)

- The spy plot is finally going somewhere, and I have no idea what’s going on, tbh. Couldn’t even guess. I’m very intrigued about it.

- I was worried Quinn wouldn’t have many scenes on this episode, because, you know, priorities. But I was wrong, and he had so many good scenes, from spy master Peter Quinn, to the more intimate scenes with Carrie (more on that later), to that great scene where he’s alone in the office playing with the tennis ball. I love that the show keeps allowing us to see his different layers.

- Carrie: in control, except when Quinn gets to her with his probing questions. Love that.  I also love that she’s actually patient with Fara now, and instead of disregard her questions and opinions, she takes the time to explain the play and how things work when recruiting assets.

- The last scene: honestly, thought I’d feel much more uncomfortable watching it. I mean, it is uncomfortable, because it’s supposed to be. But at the same time it was so wonderfully played by Claire and Suraj. His awkwardness, fear and innocence (with respect to sex), and Carrie’s inner battle between knowing that what she’s doing there is a new low, but also believing it’s the only way and for the greater good, and pushing herself to do it. I will never think it was okay to do it, but discovering this new information about Haqqani, gave Carrie’s motives a more sense of urgency, like there’s much more at risk and in play now, and that’s why she believes it’s justified. It’s not simply about what Aayan knows anymore, it’s about catching Haqqani and uncovering a conspiracy that’s bigger than just Sandy’s death. And if there’s one thing Carrie is obsessed about, it’s catching the bad guys.

- I loved Carrie and Quinn scenes, as usual. The only one that made me feel a little uneasy, was Carrie thanking him, because that one felt more manipulative than any other scene we’ve seen between them this far. But I love that the progression of their connection is slow. Painfully slow, but I think it’s the right way. Quinn getting to her right away and convincing her that she’s on the wrong path, would not feel believable. Carrie is very strong willed and stubborn, she always thinks she’s right and every one of her moves is totally justified. She’s not going to give in instantly to Quinn’s attempts to make her react. If it were played like that, I would not believe for a second that Carrie really is listening to him. Instead, we’re seeing Carrie fighting Quinn, feeling completely uncomfortable with his ability to read her and to hit right in her sore places.  And we’re seeing tiny little cracks on Carrie’s armor showing up in every discussion she has with Quinn. Right now it may feel that in the end those cracks amount to nothing, but I feel there’s a lot of carefulness in the way the writers keep building this relationship, that they have to be going somewhere with this (I’m going to crash on the ground so hard when nothing happens, right? =/).

In the job, they work so good together. Since the day they met, they’ve been able to complement eachother so well, and it’s such a pleasure for me to see them brainstorming theories and strategies. So yeah, Quinn may not be happy about being there, but I am so happy they’re working together again.

Got to watch more Homeland tonight and I just


Like he is literally the nicest assassin ever I mean he’ll carefully shoot you just enough to ensure that you won’t screw up the mission but you also won’t die and he’ll even bind your wound and keep you company in the ambulance on the way to the hospital where he’ll snoop in your medical records just to make sure he didn’t do that much damage because he’s that concerned for you and when he accidentally finds out you’re pregnant he’ll corner you in an elevator to voice his concern I CAN’T.

Yes, Hollywood isn’t known for historical accuracy or impartial portrayals of any fictionalized “other.” But I still couldn’t resist trying to see what Pakistan, my homeland, looked like through its eyes. I’m a writer of fiction, so I know about imagined worlds. You look not for complete truthfulness, but for verisimilitude — the “appearance of being true” — so it can give your art authenticity, credibility, believability. And we in Pakistan long to be seen with a vision that at least approaches the truth.