Thank you for 220 followers and... Goodbye?
((Holy shit I got 220 followers… Thank you guys so much for the awesome support.
I really wish I could Thank you all somehow, but I sadly have to say some things that has been bothering me and I want to get it off my chest.
I just want to say that during my time here, I met some nice people, some don’t like me at all or never want to talk to keep because I guess I’m a pain in the ass, but I am glad to have meet some very good people.
The roleplay community here reminds me of high school because you try to find a place where you belong, but you see There’s like certain groups, and everyone has their own group of friends. I’m not saying that this is a terrible thing, well it kinda is, but it sometimes makes other muns or newer ones feel left out and I remembered pointing out that no mun should ever feel left out and at least give them a try.
Everyone has a different style, and everyone can make really long posts, and some are one sentence, and that should never define your skills as a roleplayer because it should be fun and you should never be pressured to try to be as good as them. What really bothers me is that muns tell me that nobody wants to rp with me because I either sound too op or because my writing style doesn’t suit them, yet they rp with others with similar writing styles as me and that really hurts me and breaks my heart.
It’s hard to try to talk to people and make friends because I always feel inferior and also because I think I’m not good enough to talk to anybody.
Am I the only one Who thinks that? If so, please do because I see everybody roleplaying together and they always talk about these awesome muns, but when I talk to them or try to start a conversation, they just turn their heads and roll their eyes.
That’s my biggest peeve, and I hate it.
I think what I’m trying to say is is that I lost just touch with roleplaying. Like I can’t do it anymore because I’m stuck in a rut and it doesn’t feel the same. It hurts me to say all these things, but it’s true. I look at my blog and it’s filled with angst and sadness, nobody wants to roleplay fun things with me anymore…
The anons recently also bothered me because they we yet e really trying so hard to keep my Nano away from serious-solutions and I have to put my foot down. I Honestly was furious when they made y Nano pregnant with parvy-parvy-parv’s kids knowing full well I get complaints that I have way too any kids.
I will be taking breaks from all of this, I don’t know if I’m leaving… I’ll get to replies eventually, but now I can’t even keep up with threads because I lose them or I lose track, I’m Sorry I’m a horrible person.
So I guess this is goodbye for now, I’m not sure if I will be missed, I don’t know if my Nano matters because I feel like she’s not important in any Muse’s life so I’m just gonna do everyone a favor and slowly disappear.
I’m Sorry… I just… I can’t do it anymore…