You know, I am not surprised that there are people with this opinion, and in fact, I definitely expected more of this. But to tell me that you love my story and that it’s not fair that you have to wait for a free source of entertainment isn’t very encouraging. It’s also not very nice.
Now, on top of everything else I have to deal with - moving, work, not being paid for my work, apartment problems, emotional stress from my family that lead me to crying to my supervisor because it’s literally the only support system I have right now, my graduate thesis, summer classes, bills, post-poning my graduation, etc…
…I also have to factor in that I have not written my story in over sixth months.
You love my story? Let me tell you something. I love my story. It’s part of me. It’s something that I have learned from, grown with, hoped with, cried over, and found love through. It’s also my coping mechanism. I write to relieve stress. To help find a small source of happiness through my hectic life.
I’m not writing for your attention, for followers, for popularity. I write for me and only me. I write because it’s what I love doing, and I’m sorry that my life gets in the way sometimes. A lot of the time.
Now I don’t like excuses. I hate making excuses. And I’m not afraid of failing, but I’m not going to fail. Because I am going to finish this story, in spite of the fact that everything about asks like these makes me want to give up on the whole Brittana fandom.
Don’t guilt trip me. I am already beating the crap out of myself for disappointing all of you, even though I’m supposed to be writing for me. You haven’t gotten an update because for months and months the only thing ITYTD has been about is about how much the readers want a fucking update.
I want to enjoy writing. Don’t make me hate something I love.