I'm going to tell you a story.
Its about 11 am. You’ve been awake since 5:30am. But actually you didn’t fall asleep until 4 am because baby. The sweet nap time is almost here. Kids eat lunch, everyone is ready to do their nap time routine. It is different for everyone, wash hands, book, more book, sing song, tuck in, water, promise to do fun things after nap, pee, wash hands, book, prayers tuck in, hug kisses, kiss puppy, kiss dolly, tuck in and finally shut door. Everyone is silent. Older children are reading or doing school work…time for mommy and baby to nap.
Not easy. Baby cries. And more, and more. She cries so much your socks hang half way on your feet and you don’t have the energy to pull them up. She cries, eats, cries, you pray 10 Hail Marie’s, then finally she is asleep.
Everyone is sleeping. Except mom. You’re is thinking about pointless things. You closes eyes, but can’t turn head off. Finally you are too exhausted to think. It is here. Sleep is here. You close your eyes, then you feel it. You feel someone staring at you. Don’t open your eyes! Pretend to sleep. Just pretend. Maybe they won’t notice, maybe they’ll turn thier attention to dad. Have they left? It is just so quiet. Feels like no one is there…you are just so tired. Just take a peak, take a peak so you can get it off your mind and get some rest…
Sleep is for the weak.