I was going to post this photo without caption, but I feel like it needs a small explanation.
I have never taken a photo like this before. ‘Lingerie shoot? Me? AHAHAHA’ would have been my response in the past. I need a costume to cover me. Even if it’s the same amount of fabric, the character’s confidence is something I try and emulate, and it turns into a lot of ‘fake it til you make it’. Method acting. I wouldn’t call myself a confident individual; in costume is different than it just being…me.
But I feel like I’m gaining the confidence to really be myself. I say that I’m in a healthier living arrangement post-divorce, and I am, all around. I’m emotionally healthier, even though this has been the worst winter in my life; I’m mentally healthier, because I’m getting more accomplished; and this is the best I’ve felt physically, at this time of the year, than I can ever remember.
So this picture is something of a triumph for me. I feel like I’m starting to become the confident person that everyone else claims that I am. It’s not me in costume, so sorry if this isn’t the kind of modeling you follow me to see, but this picture means a lot to me. Plus, I look like a lovechild of Rogue and Jessica Rabbit, and I am 100% good with that.
I was going to post this on Valentine’s Day, but I didn’t want to cheapen it. I’m also a little too nervous to post it on Facebook, since the audience is harsher and coarser there, so I’m testing it here first.
Photo by robbinsstudios, as a part of his sheer curtain series.