P1 Sad message alert. Also rape tw. Buffy holds a special place in my heart. A few years ago, I was the badass girl who nobody messed with, if anyone tried to attack, I'd kick their ass in self defense. I didn't start fights, but I could defend myself. But one day, I was held down, and I couldn't stop him. He raped me, and for years after, I felt weak, dejected. I'm getting better, but it's a long recovery. Buffy has helped a lot though, because she's strong, she defends herself, like I did.
P2 so I see a lot of myself in her in the high school years, how I used to be. But then in 6, she comes back from the dead, and she feels dead inside, and she’s dejected, and I’ve felt like that a long time. And she’s almost hurt too like I was, she barely manages to win there… and she was traumatized from it, but she recovered… I know I don’t need to recover as fast, but seeing her recover, seeing her keep fighting even when she may not always win, not giving up… it just reminds me that
P3 my life didn’t end when he did what he did. I’m not weak because I couldn’t stop one person. And I CAN reclaim my life, get better, and even if I’ll never be exactly how I was once, I can “get the fire back”, and I can find “something to sing about”, and I can still be that girl who can take care of herself. I can walk away stronger… Buffy convinced me of all that. Buffy Summers did more than 3 years of therapy ever did. Because they just asked how I feel. She showed me what I can be though
anon, this is an incredible ask, thank you for sharing your story with me, it must have been incredibly hard
i have an immense respect for your mindset and i’m so proud of you for reaching this point
we might not have vampires or demons but this world definitely has it’s monsters
but it also has heroes like you <3