I think I’m going to stop counting calories
because I know too much
I know I need at least 20% of my calories from fat and at least 25g fiber but not over 40g fiber and at least X this and no more than X that blah blah blah to help prevent/relieve constipation and I feel so anxious about knowing this information and that just ~going with the flow~ might help me not stress about it and maybe poop normally??? maybe???
I have a lot of thoughts
one of them being I traded the mental aspect of my health for the physical part
like I don’t have any “Fear Foods” and I don’t give a fuck if I don’t exercise for a day or even a week at a time and I don’t struggle with OCD or anxiety (although I am always anxious about pooping but not towards anything else) I’m not depressed anymore I’m so happy with almost every aspect of my life + excited for the future
man my mental health rocks like my mom brought home coconut cashews from the NYS fair today and I had a bunch without even thinking twice about it like I literally thought “those sound good I’m going to try some” as opposed to 2 years ago I would’ve measured out exactly 1/4c of them, overestimated the calories, and then would’ve felt guilty about having them
but like my health is shit
it’s times like now where I crave a healthy body and would be willing to go back to those dark times in order to have a healthy body
I think I’m going to give a low fodmap diet and/or raw vegan diet another go
I don’t know what else to try but I can’t just sit here not changing anything because what I’m doing now clearly isn’t working!