Well, it’s day one again. I could be really depressed about this, and mad at myself for screwing up yet again. Or I could choose to learn from it. Hmmm… tough decision, isn’t it? Think I’m being funny when I say that? This usually would be a very tough decision for me. It sounds like it should be easy. Usually I would sit around feeling sorry for myself, sad for being fucked up, or just plain angry. Today I’m choosing to go a different route. Today I’m choosing to accept that yes, it is day one again - but this is the beginning of a whole new journey. Today could be the first day of the rest of my life, if I let it be. Sure there are going to be days where I struggle immensely - I definitely know that. But I don’t always have to be self destructive over my feelings/thoughts/etc and I’m going to try to change these behaviors today.
So yeah, I may be a little sad that it’s day one again, but more than anything I’m happy. At least it’s not day zero. I haven’t picked up a drink/drug, or hurt myself in any way today. I’ve prayed to God to ask him for the help, support, and guidance to carry on and get through difficult moments, and I have accepted that I am where I am right now and thats perfectly okay.
Today I am sober, and that’s what counts.