love ; child

When I was fifteen, I clasped my hands
over my stomach and dreamed about
my child—
no, I’ve never been pregnant,
like I’ve never been in love,
like I’ve never been at peace,
but those don’t always
go hand in hand,
and most nights I still dream of holding a daughter
and kissing the demons from her cheeks.

When I was young,
no one told me, You are safe,
so I crawled from corner to corner
of my tiny black room,
tasting ghosts.
When I was young,
an old man held me the morning he died,
so I wore his skin on my skin
and his breath on my neck,
and no one told me, You are not cursed.

I took fifteen slow years
to crawl out of the hole
I was not buried in;
I arrived on dry land with dirt caked
beneath my fingernails,
carrying the ghost of my childhood
between my shoulder blades.
I was not home.
Home had long crumbled like a shack
on a cliff,
so I carved my own heaven into the rock,
tied a rope to the sun
and raised it myself.

And now I still dream,
dream of my daughter
and of the nightmares
that will flow off her back like water
but will never stick,
dream of the ghosts that will haunt the corners
like bats, but never fly—
because I will always keep the lights on.

Every morning, when she opens her eyes,
I will kiss her temples and whisper,
You are blessed,
and she will taste the sunlight,
and she will be at peace.

Hey who here believes in ghosts?

Cause today my friends thought it would be a great idea to try to the Charlie thing. It didn’t work so they switched to a ouija board, and while my friend was making the board, the lights turned off.

We were in a public bathroom that had no light switch. We ran out of the bathroom and the lights turned on one by one in order as we ran out. I asked the staff dude if the other lights went out for a few second and he said no.

And now I’m home alone and I keep hearing things and I’m fucking scared.


A touch of red in a sea of black…

Sisters Of The Black Sky

Designer, Director, Photographer - Ana Dee
Stylist and Direction - Nicole Hernandez
Hair - Tara Sall
Makeup - Morgan Doody
Nails - Alecia Mounixay
Models - Jenna Lynns, Mackenzie Kay, and Sydney Miller
BTS - Chase Harrison & Paige McCaleb

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