Zamanla üzüldüğünüz şeyler size öyle saçma gelecek ki.. Mesela birinden hoşlanıyosunuz hatta seviyosunuz ama o sizin var olduğunuzdan bile bir haber. Bunun için öyle üzülüyosunuz ki. Bundan belki aylar belkide seneler sonra geriye dönüp baktığınızda vay amk ne kadar saçma bi şey için üzülmüşüm şimdi üzüldüğüm şeylerin yanında diyeceksiniz. Çünkü nasıl oyun oynarken level atladıkça oyun zorlaşıyor hayatta da yaşadığınız sene arttıkça hayat zorlaşıcak, yaşadığınız problemler artıcak, yaşadığınız hayat değişecek ama aynı zamanda sevinçleriniz de artıcak. Mesela birinci sınıfta arkadaşınız size küstü diye nasıl da düya başınıza yıkılmıştı değil mi? Ama şimdi aklınıza bu anınız geldiğinde sadece gülüyorsunuz. Şu an üzüldüğünüz hatta hayatınıza son verecek kadar karalar bağladığınız problemlerede ilerde böyle güleceksiniz. Demem o ki problemlerinizi kafanızda o kadar da büyütmeyin. Herkesin bir derdi var. Üstesinden gelmeye çalışın. İlerleyen zamanlarda gelecek daha büyük sorunlara karşı zırhınızı koruyun. Çünkü hayatta başımıza ne gibi güzellikler yada ne gibi problemler geleceğini bilmiyoruz. Kendinize gelin len! Sevipte kavuşamadıklarınızı, aile içi problemlerinizi, sıkıntılı olan derslerinizi, sahte arkadaşlarınızı, maddi sıkıntılarınızı siktir edin. Hayatın size bir ömür boyu hazırladığı sürprizler var. Mutlu kalın :*
Geçen yıl dershanedeydik sınıf belirleme sınavına girdik ben en iyi sınıftaydım çabuk çıkayım diye tüm soruları salladım 4 sınıf düştüm ama takmadım hiç bide aynı sınıfta olduğum 2 tane çocuk vardı Mertle Tolga bunların yakın bi arkadaşı vardı Emre benim gidiceğim sınıftaydı eskiden sonra bi sınıf düşmüş ben yeni sınıfımı göriyim bari diye gittim baktım Emre ağlıyo görseniz yani baya sert çocuktur ağlar falan demezsiniz kimsede yok yanında baktım Mertle Tolga orda ne oldu diyolar çocuk hiçbişey demiyo sonra cevap vermeyince onlar tam gidiyodu üzülmüşlerdi konuşmuyo diye beni gördüler sen bi şansını denesene dediler kapıdan izlediler bizi bende Emre'nin yanında gittim konuşmak için hala ağlıyodu ulan nasıl etkilendim dedim Emre ne oldu sınavım iyi geçmişti 1 kişiyle sınıf düşmüşüm arkadaşlarımdan da ayrılıcam dedi bende bunu mu dert ediyosun ben 4 sınıf düştüm falan dedim 20 dakika çocuğu teselli ettim ki benle baya dalga geçip kalbimi kırmıştı en son onu güldürüp çıktım sınıftan sonra 1 hafta geçti herkes yeni sınıfına gitti Emre 1 hafta bizim sınıfa geldi arkama oturdu baya iyi anlaşmaya başladık derste sürekli beni gıdıklıyodu mal yere düşmüştüm bi kez asdfghjklkjhg çok soğuktuk ama o ağladıktan sonra baya yakın arkadaş olduk çok garipti sadece benle konuşması ama farklı bi anıydı şimdi ne zaman onu hatırlasam hep o sahneler geçiyo gözümün önünden diyeceğim şu kı nasıl ağlayan bi kızı bi erkek teselli edebiliyosa ağlayan bi erkeği de ancak bi kız teselli edebilir

Derelerden, artakalan ne varsa: sessizlik. Çoraklıkta sürüp gider. Çamurlu, kırmızı yarıklar açar kendine, ufak yollar, ince kıvrımlar; suları kabarcıklandırır oralarda, bir barınak bulayım diye, sonra kıyılarına ve dibine tutuna tutuna gelişir, hızlanır, (tıpkı dere gibi) sürer. Neler mi düşer? Kıyıdaki bir baharın pembeleri, dal kırığı, gül yaprağı, yeterince uzağa fırlatılmamış bir çapari, becerikli bir ananın diktiği kırmızı fırfırlı eteklik, bir de uzaktan, kalabalıktan varılınca daldırıp alna boşaltılan bir kasket, armasında bir bozkurt.

Güzel havalarda, sınıfta çift sıra halinde çıkılan okul gezmelerinin tam ortasında, itiş-kakış, önlük sökülmesi, papatya toplamak derken, ansızın ağan bir sevinçti sessizlik, içten içe işleyen tuhaf bir gürültüydü. Hazırlanması bütün bir sabahı, o sabahın ilk saatlerini alırdı, sonra ansızın yayılırdı havaya. Her yerde oyun dururdu, çocuk büyürdü, bahçe daha bir yükseltirdi kokularını, ilerideki kartpostal geminin düdüğünden köpükler taşardı genzimize. Sessizlik egemendi artık, sevinçti ve görünce kendi gücünü, sağlamlığını, dosdoğru güneşin bittiği son çizgiye: denize. Adı kestirilmeyen bir çiçek kokusu dolaşırdı havayı.

Tomris Uyar, “Dağlar Sada Verip Seslenmelidir” (İpek ve Bakır s.53)

  • Fotoğraf: Artvin, Hopa. 

Şair ceketli çocuk, güzel abim -Kazım Koyuncu- demişti bir kere:”Benim için Diyarbakır ile Trabzon arasındaki tek fark, Diyarbakır’da deniz olmamasıdır.” 

Ve, sen metin ol öğretmenim, Metin Lokumcu. Senin ve Kazım Koyuncu’nun yolunda güzelliklere doğru kulaç açıp gidiyorum. Hayat nerelere savurursa. Sizin memleketinizde nefes almak güzel. Sokaktaki insanların, yayladaki kadınların hele ki çocukların yüzlerinde hep siz varsınız. Yeşil’in her tonu sizi gösteriyor. Mavinin her tonu siz kokuyor. 

'Yolunuz yolum'uzdur. 

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bugün dershaneye tam 20 dk erken gitmeme rağmen sınıfta biri vardı ve o kadar boş sıra içinde tutup benim sırama oturmuştu ben de onun arkasına yani küpeli çocuğun (dün anlattığım salak) sırasına oturmak zorunda kaldım. derste bi muhabbet açıldı işte dedi ki BİZ DE SIRAMIZDA SARJ EDİYODUK TELEFONU AMA KAPILMIŞ YARIN SAAT 7.30TA SINIFTA OLUCAM.
ahahaha güldüm tabi sinirle yanımdaki arkadaş ver sarja takayım dedi neyse öyle susturduk ama telefonu verirken NE KADAR YARDIMSEVERSİN SAĞ OL fln dedi arkime bana kinaye yaptı yani. senin aq. sen kimsin?????????? kısacası yarın saat 7de dershanedeyim nöbet tutucam.

5 Common Insecurities That Dont Mean Anything About Your Transgender Identity

In my time being active in the nonbinary trans community I’ve received countless questions that were something along the lines of “does _______ mean that I’m not trans?” I feel like a lot of these insecurities come from the fact that people just don’t know how common these feelings are among other trans people. So I wanted to make a post clearing up some very common insecurities I hear from trans people that don’t mean anything about your gender identity.

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1) I keep misgendering myself - does that mean I’m not really trans?

Unfortunately, you don’t get to just un-do however many years of brain wiring the day you decide you want to live as a different gender. Your brain forms pathways from use, and the only way using your chosen name and pronouns becomes natural is through repetition. Accidentally referring to yourself as the wrong name or pronouns doesn’t mean anything about your gender, and it’s not uncommon for someone to slip up and call themselves the wrong name even when they haven’t spoken it for 5 years! Your brain just misfires sometimes, don’t beat yourself up about it.

2) I’m having second thoughts about HRT or surgery - does that mean I’m not really trans?

Physical transition is a series of life-changing medical decisions that need to be treated with all the seriousness of any other medical decision. The idea of surgery terrifies some people, as it would be such a huge and sudden change to their physical form, not to mention the months of painful recovery and risks of complication. The prospect of going on hormones also means coping with change and risks of complication. There are so many valid reasons to hesitate about taking the next step, and I think that if you don’t have even a little bit of hesitation you’re probably not grasping the seriousness of the decision you’re about to make.

It’s normal to be hesitant about change or nervous about any medical intervention, especially one as radical as transition. Of course, there are also people who get to the point of starting their transition and then start having second thoughts because the realize it isn’t the right decision for them. You should step back and take some time to think about whether your anxiety is about the actually process of the change (anxiety around surgery, sudden changes to your body, recovery, worried it won’t turn out right), or if it’s because you actually just don’t think those changes are right for you.

It’s perfectly normal, even for 100% binary trans people, to have to postpone surgery or starting HRT until they can work through their anxiety around it, and then wind up doing it a year later and say it was the best decision they ever made!

3) I want to transition but I only want to change X and not Y or Z - does that mean I’m not really trans?

There are trans people who don’t transition at all, so of course only wanting to transition in one way but not another doesn’t make you less trans! Gender dysphoria manifests in different ways and in different severities for every person, and it’s important that you listen to your body and your feelings and lead your transition in the direction you need it to go! You’re not just running through some pre-set A-to-Z transition narrative, this is YOUR transition and YOUR body and you need to do exactly as much or as little as it takes for YOU to feel comfortable. Don’t worry about anyone else’s ideas about how you need to transition, this is your journey, not theirs.

4) I don’t want to transition at all - does that mean I’m not really trans?

Plenty of trans people choose not to transition for a myriad of different reasons and every one of their gender identities is as valid as anyone else’s. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!

 5) I’m having second thoughts about my decision to come out - does that mean I’m not trans?

The first while after you acknowledge being trans and come out can be scary, because it makes you feel isolated from the people around you, your culture, your media - so many things that used to make you feel welcome before now no longer reflect or represent people like you. you don’t know what your life is going to be like, if you’ll be able to find a job or an apartment or friends or a partner - you feel like you’ve signed up for a one-way ticket on the Freak Train and think maybe it might be best to just jump off before it starts going too fast. Humans don’t react well to change, even if it’s good or necessary change.

It’s important to take a time out whenever you’re feeling anxious about anything like this. Assess where you’re anxiety is coming from - are you anxious about what life is going to be like for you as a trans person, or are you anxious that you might not actually feel like the gender you thought you were? Answers don’t come quickly. Take time out for introspective thought. 

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The idea that in order to be trans you have to be so sure about every aspect of your gender and transition right from day one, and that there is no room for self-doubt, is just part of the gate-keeping rhetoric designed to make trans people doubt themselves and deter people from transitioning, and it’s reinforced by trans people who are insecure or defensive about their trans identity (because of the harmful rhetoric they’ve been fed). You’re still a human, and you still have every right to feel the natural anxiety and hesitation that comes with serious decisions and changes in your life. In fact, it’s healthy! 

Just breathe, remain thoughtful and self-aware, and everything will work out alright.

-newt

An unknown soldier in Vietnam, circa 1969. The writing on the back of the Flak Jacket reveals the mood of the time. The caption near the bottom of the jacket reads “Fun Travel Adventure”. Some folks know it has another meaning as well.

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This happened today. A little birdy caught wind of a special scumbag being flagged on Timeless Isle.

THE HUNT FOR THERAPON.

This is your que to reblog.

Shout out to exitpursuedbybears for the help tracking.

Colombia Nationwide Strike Against ‘Free Trade,’ Privatization, Poverty

A nationwide strike in Colombia—which started as a rural peasant uprising and spread to miners, teachers, medical professionals, truckers, and students—reached its 7th day Sunday as at least 200,000 people blocked roads and launched protests against a U.S.-Colombia Free Trade Agreement and devastating policies of poverty and privatization pushed by US-backed right-wing President Juan Manuel Santos.

"[The strike is a condemnation] of the situation in which the Santos administration has put the country, as a consequence of its terrible, anti-union and dissatisfactory policies," declared the Central Unitaria de Trabajadores (CUT), the country’s largest union, in a statement.

The protests and strikes, largely ignored in the English-language media, have been met with heavy crackdown from Colombia’s feared police, with human rights organization Bayaca reporting shootings, torture, sexual assault, severe tear-gassing, arbitrary arrests, and other abuses on the part of state agents. Colombia’s Defense Minister Juan Carlos Pinzon recently claimed that the striking workers are being controlled by the “terrorist” Revolutionary Armed Forces of Colombia (FARC), in a country known for using unverified claims of FARC connections as an excuse to launch severe violence against social movements.

EU-India Trade Deal Could Cut Medicines Lifeline for People in Developing Countries

Nearly 2,000 People Living with HIV Rally in Streets of Delhi as EU-India Summit Starts


As India and the European Union (EU) meet for a summit in New Delhi today to iron out the differences over a FreeTrade Agreement (FTA), nearly two thousand people living with HIV and the international medical humanitarian organization Doctors Without Borders protested in the streets of the Indian capital to warn that remaining harmful provisions in the agreement could have a severely negative impact on access to affordable medicine for people in developing countries.


Go here to check out more about the situation and rally in India.

Photo: India 2012 © Syddharth Singh

This is observable globally too. 

The US requires cheap, undervalued labor to maintain itself, which is why you have places like Foxconn, like sweatshops, like these under the table factories that treat their workers like shit and pay them pittances for wages and yet still are being used. 

These countries are targeted by the US so their economies can’t grow so the US can maintain cheap labor. 

Don’t believe me? Why do you think the US forced an FTA agreement with Korea so forcefully despite widespread protests? It was to attack the Chinese economic influence in East Asia. 

The US saying it has a humanitarian interest in underdeveloped countries developing economically? Then why is their main way of “helping” through institutions like the IMF which are more parasitic and harmful than helpful (trust me, I’m Korean, we have experience with the IMF). 

In the US the brunt of this falls on Black and brown people. Black people are forced into bad schooling system, are targeted by police, have the hoods flooded with crack by Reagan and then are targeted by a War on Drugs thus de facto criminalizing Black bodies. 

The same for a large part of brown people. A large fact of why immigration reform fails again and again is because the US reaps so many benefits from a large undocumented worker population. Taxes, payments into social security which those who paid can’t see, and cheap labor they can abuse with the constant threat of reporting and deportation. 

The threat of violence whether it be through physical or political or economic means is an important part of the US’s way of maintaining their Capitalistic system which is also infected with a racist ideology of demeaning, devaluing, and destroying PoC, especially Black, lives. 

#StayWoke

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"9.70 documentary" tells the story of a group of farmers from which the Colombian Government seized and destroyed 70 tons of rice. 

In a very short amount of time, the Colombian government approved a series of laws and resolutions in order to sign a Free Trade Agreement (FTA) with the United States as quickly as possible. One of the conditions set by the US was to create a legislation for the ‘privatization’ of seeds.

The documentary examines the impact caused by these decisions, exemplifying them by using the case of Campoalegre, a southern Colombian town where the resolution was set in motion. In 2011, the Agency responsible for monitoring agricultural activities in Colombia (ICA) came to the town and seized 70 tons of rice, then returned with the police, and finally destroyed the seeds by burying them in a landfill for considering them illegal.

via http://nacla.org/blog/2013/12/13/certified-seeds-different-wars-same-reasons

Certified Seeds: Different Wars, Same Reason

For many years there was opposition from both nations: Colombian farmers and social movements, as well as U.S. trade unionists and activists concerned about the human rights situation in Colombia, protested the U.S.-Colombia Free Trade Agreement (FTA). Nevertheless the U.S. government approved it in 2011 and it went into effect a year later. In President Barack Obama’s State of the Union address in 2012, he said, “soon there will be millions of new customers for American goods in Panama, Colombia, and South Korea. I will go anywhere in the world to welcome new markets for American products.”

The idea of “American goods” might bring to mind Chevrolets, a fancy refrigerator, or Hollywood movies, but it also includes something much smaller and much more ancient: seeds. Although seeds grow freely and (for the most part) reproduce themselves naturally, the U.S. government and multinational corporations consider them a commodity to be controlled and marketed worldwide. In fact, according to the documentary9.70, the commercialization of patented seeds is one of the three most profitable businesses in the world, with ten companies dominating 77% of the global market. Of these ten, three control 47% of the market: Monsanto, DuPont, and Syngenta.

Monsanto has had a presence in Colombia since the 1970s, with the first shipment of Monsanto’s genetically modified seeds arriving in 1997, but the business of patented seeds became more lucrative with the passage of the free trade agreement. Most free trade agreements regulate seeds and patents. In Colombia’s case, the Colombian Institute for Livestock and Agriculture (ICA) passed resolution 9.70 in 2010 as a requirement for the approval of the FTA with the United States. This resolution controls the production, use and marketing of seeds. More specifically, it makes non-certified (ICA is the certifying institution) seeds illegal and anybody who uses the non-certified seeds (or saves them for the next year) on land that is larger than five hectares (about 12 acres) or for commercial use, is breaking the law. Not surprisingly, the majority of certified seeds come from the U.S.; in Colombia only 8% of certified seeds come from Colombian companies. However, buying certified seeds is two or three times as expensive as saving seeds to plant in the following years, and certified seeds can only be used once, in one harvest (they have to be purchased again the following year).

Victoria Solano’s powerful documentary 9.70, tells the story of this resolution and its devastating impact on farmers in Campoalegre, Huila. These farmers reserved the best part of their crop as seeds to use for the following year, as they do every year. However, officials from the Colombian Institute for Livestock and Agriculture (ICA), escorted by members of Colombia’s riot police, showed up to confiscate 62 tons of their rice seeds and threw them in a landfill because their practices were illegal according to Resolution 9.70. Not only were the farmers’ seeds destroyed, legal actions were also taken against them for breaking the law. According to the farmers, they were never informed of the new resolution that made their ancestral practice, a tradition carried on for hundreds if not thousands of years, illegal. The Campoalegre farmers are not alone—according to Semana magazine, resolution 9.70 has led to the destruction of 4,271 tons of seeds of rice, potatoes, corn, and other vegetable products.

Soon after ICA’s destruction of rice seeds and the release of the documentary in August, Colombian farmers went on strike. Their demands included a suspension and renegotiation of the U.S.-Colombia FTA. After highly subsidized U.S. products began to flood the market, Colombian farmers found themselves facing huge losses and the prospect of no longer being able to make a living the way they always had.

read more: http://nacla.org/blog/2013/12/13/certified-seeds-different-wars-same-reasons

A supporter sent us a letter to the editor she had written to counter all the right-wing letters in her local paper commenting on the humanitarian crisis on the border caused by children fleeing Honduras, Guatemala, and El Salvador.  Here’s her answer to the question in the headline:

"We read that children are streaming across the Texas border from Honduras, Guatemala, El Salvador…but….not Nicaragua?  Why aren’t Nica’s children fleeing the left wing Sandinista government that the US has been trying to crush ever since their revolution in 1979?  Could it be that Nicaragua, despite its poverty, provides more security for its population than other Central American countries? Yes!  Check out the stats:  lowest homicide rate, no death squads, little gang activity: “least violent country in Central America and safest in all Latin America”!! Wow! Maybe Obama could shift gears, and, instead of sending military equipment to ‘fight’ the ‘war’ on drugs, and the ‘war’ on  youth, he might support education, health and small farmers in Central America, and repeal the disastrous free trade policies that are making the rich richer and the poor ready to head for the border. That might help convince young people to stay home."

We encourage you to write letters to the editor in your own words to try to bring some rationality to the immigration “debate.” To view a map showing the places of origen of the child migrants, click here. Letters below 200 words have the most chance of being published. Below are talking points that we hope are helpful.

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