My stomach has been really messing with me all day which has caused a huge poor body image and is making me so sad. :( I haven’t wanted to eat, which means I need this to make up calories. But these are starting to become a fear again because I feel like I am being too unhealthy. I need to remember that this pint is good for my body. It is good for me because no food should be feared. #fearfood #benandjerrys #benandjerrysicecream #icecream #fearfoodchallenge #fearfoodtuesday #lordstilllovesicecream #smores #smoresicecream #ed #edsoldier #edrecovery

Treated myself to a challenge. A mini roll! I also had a butterscotch options hot choc. Going for higher calorie options feel ill and I need to eat more during the week so I don’t binge at weekends. #anawho #recoverywarrior #staystrong #anorexiarecovery #EDNOSrecovery #fearfoodtuesday #foodisfuel #foodchallenge #treat #food #goodfood

The last of my pizza. So sad. But I shall enjoy every single bite because it is made of Alfredo sauce an garlic and it is freaking delectable. πŸ•πŸ•πŸ•πŸ• I can truly say that I have conquered this fear! I am a firm believer that you need to try fear foods more than once in order for them to become normal food. πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ #fearfood #fearfoodchallenge #fearfoodtuesday #conquered

So the employee party was not too fun. I work with people that are all in college and are not Christians so their humor is much different than mind. I ended up being very quiet and I even left early. It bothers me that I am not comfortable in social situations. It makes me sad because I used to be the life of the party. Now I just sit there and wait to be talked to. This dumb disease has taken so many things away from that I fear I’ll never fully get back. And on top of it all, I have the worst stomach she ever. πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜žπŸ˜žπŸ˜žπŸ˜ž I need a new day. #fearfood #fearfoodtuesday #fearfoodchallenge #grilledcheese