SURPRISE. Oh, and slight warning: may contain pg-13 content? Maybe… anyways enjoy!
You began to stir in your sleep, the morning sun shining through an opening in your window curtains. Your eyes slowly opened, adjusting to the light welcoming itself in the room.
You yawned before grabbing the sheets again and covering your head. You felt yourself falling back asleep when you heard a quiet snore beside you. Wait. You sat up quickly and your eyes widened when you felt a cool breeze against your body.
What… You weren’t wearing clothes. Why weren’t you wearing clothes?! You grabbed the blankets and held them to your chest, your face burning with embarrassment.
Oh shit, you thought. It wasn’t a dream… You looked over to the left side of the bed. His light brown colored hair stuck out from the covers.
“Oh my god.” Your eyes widened as you lowered the covers slightly showing his bare shoulders. Was he shirtless?
You lowered them again, showing part of his back this time. Were those scratches? The memories starting flowing and you found yourself struggling to maintain a calm composure. So it was real… You and your best friend, the guy you’ve loved more than best friend forever… you and Oh Sehun-
"How much more of the blanket are you going to remove, _____?"
His voice shocked you. He was awake. Oh shit. You let out a squeak and scramble off the bed quickly, grabbing the blanket to cover yourself. You attempted to run for the bathroom, but your legs were far too sore to carry you anywhere. You fell to the ground and grabbed the blanket to quickly wrap yourself with it.
You were aching everywhere especially in your lower region and you let out a whine.
"Ah, you’re that sore?" He spoke quietly before releasing a soft chuckle. Sehun ruffled his light brown hair and grinned at you. "I guess I did a good job." Your face turned a crimson color as the memories continued to play through your head, my god it was like a porno film…
"Oh Se-" You couldn’t even finish your sentence. You had looked up at the bed and found yourself closing your eyes fast, opening your mouth to scream. "Sehun!" You screamed, bringing a hand to cover your eyes. There he was… lying completely naked on your bed, completely unphased.
"Don’t act innocent. You’ve already seen it all." He simply said as he sat up and stretched. "Besides you took all the blankets with you. How am I supposed to cover up?" Sehun grinned and you found yourself rolling your eyes. He was so confident with his body.
"I-I’m not moving until you put on clothes…" You stutter as he chuckled softly.
"You can’t really walk either, so…" He said as you heard the bed squeak. Sehun swung his legs off the side of the bed and stood up before walking over to you. He crouched in front of you and tugged the blankets gently.
"No, no-" You were still so embarrassed. A naked Sehun was right in front of you… well he was lying besides you earlier, but he was right in front of you. Oh god.
"Alright, alright, _____." Sehun mumbled before reaching over and grabbing his shorts. He quickly pulled them on and looked back at you. You still had your hands covering your face and he rolled his eyes. "I wasn’t even that rough last night and you’re already this sore? Are you going to lay on that floor for the rest of the morning?"
You didn’t say anything. He suddenly bent over and reached under to scoop you into his arms.
"Wait, Sehun!" You removed your hands from your face and looked up at him. "Oh…" You looked at the purple blue mark on his neck and blushed instantly. One… Two… Three- He chuckled before placing you gently onto the bed.
"Don’t bother counting…" He said before crawling back into bed beside you, grabbing the blanket. Sehun began getting back under the covers when you said nervously…
"I’m not wearing clothes…" You chewed your lower lip, holding the sheets tight to your chest. He was staying here with you?
"I’m alright with that." He blinked innocently, but you narrowed your eyes at him. Sehun looked at you and shook his head again. He leaned over and grabbed his white shirt off the floor and threw it over to you.
"Sorry. I’ll buy you a new shirt just like that one, okay?" Your eyes widened before looking over at the shredded articles of clothing lying on the floor. When did that even happen? You quickly tossed the shirt over your body and sat there quietly.
You were still processing what happened last night, and you could tell he was too. The entire room was silent and you swore he could hear you swallowing; that’s how quiet it was. The atmosphere itself was also a bit… awkward.
"So you and I.. I mean we… last night.." You started to mumble quietly. "… we did it…"
"Yea." He said back. You looked over at him as he lay on his back, his hands behind his head, his eyes looking only at the ceiling. Yea? That’s it? Did this mean nothing to him then? You were starting to feel slightly disappointed, a lump growing in your throat making it hard to swallow.
You were no longer a virgin. You had given it to your best friend, Oh Sehun. To you, this was something you had been wanting for so long. Your eyes slowly met and you remembered his touch almost instantly. You remembered everything… the way his fingers danced against your skin, the way his lips felt against yours… What if this meant nothing to him?
"Sehun…" You had wanted him for so long but attempted to suppress all feelings for him. After all, how could you tell your best friend you’ve been having dreams about him? That you’ve liked him more than a friend since many years ago?
The both of you were watching a movie in your room last night. Your parents were gone for the weekend and he insisted he stayed with you… Of course you weren’t going to decline if he insisted. After all, you really enjoyed spending time with him. Even if he didn’t see you as more than a best friend, if he was hanging out with you, that meant he wasn’t potentially with any other girls. And then one thing lead to another.
It didn’t help that the movie had so many explicit scenes. You were slightly uncomfortable watching it with Sehun, but he didn’t seem to make it a big deal so you didn’t want to either. He was the one who picked the movie after all. You didn’t want him to think you were a baby, or uncomfortable with such topics since you were both considered legally an adult.
Then it was at one point where he caught you looking at him. You just wanted to see if he was as uncomfortable as you were but alas no. He just leaned in and kissed you, and once you kissed him back… Well, that’s how it started. Everything afterwards was a blur… a creaking bed, bare skin and open-mouthed pants. You lost yourself completely in him.
Was it… going to be awkward between you guys now? The atmosphere itself was awkward, but what about your friendship? Could it be salvaged? You fisted the blankets in your hands and bit your lower lip. Your mind was running wild and you weren’t sure what to even expect now. Maybe it was a mistake. Did this mean anything to him at all? Or maybe-
”______. Do you regret it?” He asked quietly, breaking the silence.
"Eh?" It took you a while to stop your own trail of thought. Did you regret giving him your virginity? No, not at all. This whole time you’ve wanted no one else but him to take it from you. You were taking too long to answer as Sehun swallowed loudly.
"I’d be lying to you if I said I’m sorry that it was me. As much as that makes me sound like an asshole.." Sehun sat up and looked you in the eyes. You felt your face starting to heat up. What did he mean? He started to scratch the back of his head; he always did that when he was nervous or embarrassed… It was just something you picked up after being friends with him for so long.
"Why?" You asked him and he sighed before reaching forward and touching the bruises on your neck. You felt electricity just from his all too familiar touch. His eyes narrowed and he shook his head.
"I’m… not sorry even though I should be."
"Don’t be sorry, Sehun… I’m not." You say honestly and his eyes widen. He blinks at you in confusion, as if he was waiting for you to say something more. "I don’t… I don’t regret it."
"You know I meant what I said last night." Sehun said quietly. "I meant every word. I don’t regret feeling this way for you. I know it’s selfish of me but-" You tilt your head and he stops talking.
"I don’t know what you’re talking about." Sehun grabbed your arm suddenly and pulled you close to him. You could probably faint in bliss right now. Your body was pressed against his bare chest and he held you close to him.
God, how many times you’ve dreamt of him embracing you…
"Y-You must’ve fallen asleep…" You could hear slight disappointment in his voice. You were so afraid at this moment he could feel your heartbeat against his. But you were genuinely confused; was this his heart beating so fast? Or was it yours? "I told you I loved you."
Your eyes widened. You must’ve heard wrong.
"You… said that?" You almost didn’t believe him.
"I won’t take it back. It’s selfish of me to put our friendship on the line." Sehun pulled you away from him and held you by your shoulders. "But I’ve loved you… for so long. I don’t want anyone else to have you. I didn’t want anyone else to take your virginity if it wasn’t me. Sorry…" Sehun confessed.
It was quiet. He let out a heavy sigh before letting go of your shoulders. He removed the blankets gently and started to get off the bed. Sehun had his legs hanging over the bed before rubbing the back of his neck.
"Aren’t you going to say something?" He asked quietly. Did you just lust for his touch? He thought, maybe you just wanted someone to touch you… Maybe you didn’t feel this way about him. Did he just ruin years of friendship with you by giving into his selfish desires?
But… you wanted it, right? You said that. He thought to himself. It wasn’t just him; you were the one who kissed him back, but perhaps he was too forceful. At that moment, he wanted nothing but to kiss you, but to get his feelings through to you. Since you never talked about any guys around him, he was almost certain you weren’t interested in anyone… except for him he had hoped.
In any case, he had no idea how he was going to apologize for ruining the friendship you two had… There was no turning back.
Just then, you reached forward and wrapped your arms around his waist. His entire body froze and you rested your head gently against his back.
"I didn’t know you felt that way towards me." He was shocked as he removed your arms and turned around to look at you. Seriousness was written all over his face.
"I wouldn’t do that with anyone except for someone I had feelings for." He said quietly. "Tell me now if I’ve ruined our friendship."
"If you don’t feel the same I understand. I mean.. We are still best friends, I just… You could just think of this as just-" He was getting all tongue tied. In fact, it killed him every time you brought up the fact that the two of you were best friends. He didn’t want you to think of what the two of you did last night as nothing… To him… It was making love. He had loved you.
"Stop talking…" You say to him quietly and leaned forward. You pressed your lips quickly against his. "I told you I didn’t regret it. I’ve always liked you more than a best friend. I thought you didn’t feel the same."
He didn’t say anything more. Sehun grabbed you tightly and held you close to him before lying down. You lay gently against his chest and listened to the quickening sound of his heartbeat.
"This is too good to be true…" Sehun sighed heavily and you found yourself smiling.
"I love you…" You say to him quietly before pulling away from his chest. You leaned against him, tracing your finger gently on his lips. "I have for a while…"
"I guess it’s been mutual then," Sehun let out a chuckle before you leaned down and captured his lips. The both of you were worried one another had been interested in other people, but failed to notice the interest you had in one another. Stupid. You smiled against his lips and sighed happily. “Are you still hurting?”
You shook your head slightly. Being with Sehun, knowing his feelings for you made you forget about the pain. A grin spread on his face as he held your waist and rolled the both of you over so he was on top.
"Good, because I’m not going to lie, I really want you right now…"
"Again? Sehun…" You whined.
"I know you want me too, ______. It’s okay, we’ll cuddle afterwards." It was almost a deal you couldn’t turn down. He kissed you gently again.
"You’re insatiable, Oh Sehun." You say between kisses.
"You love me anyways, babe." Babe… You liked it when he called you that. Your face turned red; you still weren’t adjusted to your best friend being so… affectionate towards you. “I’ll make your second time even better than the first.”
"Sehun!" You shouted in embarrassment and he stopped where he was, chuckling again.
"Ah, that’s the only thing I regret…" You look at him questionably as he raises an eyebrow.
“Should’ve had you screaming for me louder.”
"Oh my god, Sehun!" You screamed and slapped his arm. He began laughing and you could feel your face burning.
"I’m just playing… You were loud enough." Before you could yell at him again for saying such things, he attacked your lips again. Sehun after pressed his lips hungrily against your neck, his fingers playing with the bottom of the shirt you had on. "Seeing you in my clothes is such a turn on, ______…" You giggled before placing your hands on his chest.
"My parents are going to kill me if they see these on my neck!" You say as Sehun chuckles and looks up at you. He presses his forehead against yours before giving you a chaste kiss.
"Don’t worry, babe. That’s what make up is for. Besides, I’ll just kiss elsewhere. I’ll give them to you in places only I’ll see." And once again, he had your face flushing with embarrassment.
“Stop! You’re gross!" He pressed a light feathery kiss to your nose before chuckling at your reaction.
"Ah… But you love me anyways, don’t you?" You pouted cutely at him, knowing you couldn’t deny it.
Yeah. You loved him.
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