I need some serious help. I am a Christian but I find myself not wanting to read the Bible and when I pray, I get extremely distracted. I spend 30 minutes 'praying' when I actually only prayed for about half the time. I want to be completely devoted to God, what am I supposed to do?
The disciples struggled with this very issue in the garden and Jesus’ exhortation to them was simple. The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. What Jesus is illustrating is a constant struggle between the flesh and the Spirit that we all experience. Believe it or not, no one automatically wants to pray all of the time and for long periods of time. This only takes place after training your mind to seek His Presence. They way to do that is to utilize the willingness of the Spirit to press past the weakness of the flesh during your prayer time. Limit your distractions by praying in a room without a computer or phone. Also keep a notepad with you so that when you begin to think of things that are seemingly distractions, just write them down, Thank God for bringing them to your remembrance and continue praying. Lastly it is very effective to pray out loud when you want to limit distractions. When you are speaking out your Narrative to God, you’re more likely to be focused on what you are saying. It will be a little weird at first but the more you do it the better it will feel.
And like I said, don’t worry. There is absolutely nothing wrong with your for not wanting to pray or read scripture. Sometimes it is a greater expression of love to persist despite not really “feeling” it. God is all the more pleased when its not as easy for you.