even in the darkest of times


was going to wait until I had better lighting to share this, but I was too excited to post it, I had so much fun making it. Hayley has been an inspiration to me for years and Paramore’s music has had a huge influence on me growing through my teens to my twenties. So this is a tribute to my fave vocalist of all time. The lyric is one of those I hold dearest and means a whole lot to me, it also reminds me of a favourite line from a Jimmy Eat World song: “in your darkest times, it’s just enough to know it’s there”. A reminder to stay strong and that even when things seem to be the worst they could ever be, holding on to the light I hold inside is what will keep me going, and that light can be found in anything.

Exactly 4 years ago from now, I met the thing that change my life the most.
On a sad sad evening, alone in front of the tv, I met the only thing that still make me smile in my darkest time.
Exactly 4 year ago from now, I met Doctor Who.
And I will never thank the world enough for that gift.


Happy 21st Birthday Justin!

I can never explain how much i love you and how much you mean to me. You’ve been my light during my darkest times and I can never explain to you how much that means to me. I’m so proud of the man you’ve become and how far you’ve come in a year. There was not a moment in the past 2 years where i even for a second considered giving up on you because I knew the real you and had faith, and look at you now baby! 5 years ago we were the underdogs and still today we’re the underdogs but remember being the underdog isnt so bad, just shows we have something to prove to the haters. Fuck every human that has looked at you and said you don’t deserve what you have achieved. Fuck. Them. You deserve all the love, happiness and success in the world baby and tonight you deserve to get turnt okay so get drunk, live life and be a normal 21 year old. Not one person on earth deserves this moment more than you do. Love you baby happy 21st!


list of movies: Love, Rosie  - October 17, 2014
"Your friendship has brought glorious technicolor to my life. It’s been there even in the darkest of times and I’m the luckiest person alive for that gift. I hope I didn’t take it for granted.. maybe I did. Because sometimes you don’t see that the best thing that’s ever happened to your is sitting there, right under your nose. But that’s fine, too. It really is. Because I’ve realized that no matter where you are or what you’re doing, or who you’re with, I will always, honestly, truly, completely love you."

You will smile again. You will laugh again. Days will come when you don’t think about it anymore. You may not believe it today, but you will realise it tomorrow.
—  Allahaljalil.tumblr.com

oh god but what if at some point before bones and jim had ever gotten a chance to admit their feelings for each other, bones gets captured on an away mission, and he’s interrogated but he never gave in. And Jim and the crew go on a rescue mission to find him and when Jim spots him handcuffed to the wall in the dark small dingy cell he runs to him and bones is exhausted and dirty and bruised and he just collapses onto Jim when jim unlocks his cuffs and jim is just repeating ‘I’m sorry bones. I’m so so sorry. How did you get through it, how did you not break?” and as he’s slinging his arm around bones waist to haul him out of there, bones, barely awake, slurs against his neck

"i thought of you"