eternal-joy

“The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.” - Matthew 13:44
 
I love this picture. Imagine walking in a field and stumbling upon a treasure that is more valuable than anything else you could work for or find in this life. It is more valuable than all you have now or will ever have in the future.

You look around and notice that no one else realizes the treasure is here, so you cover it up quickly and walk away, pretending you haven’t seen anything. You go into town and begin to sell off all your possessions to have enough money to buy that field. The world thinks you’re crazy. “What are you thinking?” your friends and family ask you.

You tell them, “I’m buying that field over there.”

They look at you in disbelief. “That’s a ridiculous investment,” they say. “Why are you giving away everything you have?”

You respond, “I have a hunch,” and you smile to yourself and you walk away.

You smile because you know. You know that in the end you are not really giving away anything at all. Instead you are gaining. Yes, you are abandoning everything you have, but you are also gaining more than you could have in any other way. So with joy - with joy! - you sell it all, you abandon it all. Why? Because you have found something worth losing everything else for.

This is the picture of Jesus in the gospel. He is something - someone - worth losing everything for.

- from Radical by David Platt

Waiting

On something to come along that I can finally call mine. Waiting on something I can put all the pent up heart and soul that’s overflowing my body into, 100%. Waiting on something I can love without it impeding on my well being and causing me to choose between it and my existence. Waiting on a hobby, and interest, a person, an artform, anything to put the essence of my soul into and still being able to maintain that SAME outlet throughout the rest of my days here on earth. I’m 26 years old and I’ve been waiting and missing out on sharing my love with the rest of the universe. I’m sick and fucking tired of it.