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I Hate Being Wrong.

After going through RvB I can say that even the characters that piss me off, gross me out, and even the ones that hurt my favorites are still fucking amazing and all of the shit I throw at them is done in the same tone as when I fawn over others. 

Like I can say I fucking despise the Director but the dude has a great voice and I can get where he was coming from.

I can grumble about Tex beating up on my babies but at the same time be rooting for her and getting distressed when she’s in jeopardy.

I can practically tear Tucker’s face off every time the asshole speaks but I practically melt when I see him with his kid. Hell I even pointed out that he seems to be the one that is one of the better strategists in the Blood Gulch crew.

I pretty much tune out to half of the stuff Sis’ says but she’s managed to get some genuine laughs and reactions out of me.

I can fume and rage at South for hours but man I fucking get it. She had so much fucking patience with the program and I get it. I would have snapped too. I may not be fond of her but I totally understand why she is the way she is.

This -to me- is the marker of a great understanding of how to write characters. When I don’t feel like characters keep taking steps backwards to keep the show in the safe zone. When I don’t  feel like the writers lost sight of who the character was in the first place and just picked one trope and cranked it up to 11. When I feel like, this is a real person with real suffering, real joy, and real reasons to do what they do.

When you have a long running show like this, there’s bound to be some fuck ups. When you have a large cast of characters it’s a huge risk because sometimes you’ll forget who has certain ticks or who has certain mannerisms. I won’t say that RvB is a flawless example of writing but I’ll be dammed if they don’t know what they’re doing.

When I first heard about RvB through my little brother, it was one of maybe two or three things that I out right refused to watch. I thought it was going to be childish and stupid. (This was around the time the first season was airing so I was a “holier than thou” snob)

When I was first watching South Park, I was stunned that an episode made me tear up. I point to that as the moment where I realized that the show was actually pretty goddamned good. As of this moment, that is still the only episode that got me to cry.

When I first watched RvB, I laughed (both at and with I mean for fuck’s sake the feet constantly clip because of the game engine) , I rolled my eyes, I heckled the characters constantly.

When my friend showed me Out of Mind, I was unusually quiet. I felt like, “I need to let them talk I need to hear what they say.” This was the point where I first felt like I was interacting with real people rather than just helmets bobbing up and down. I made distressed noises at the end of that set of episodes. It took all of 5 episodes to get me upset for someone I didn’t even know at that point.

Then Reconstruction happened. I was alright up until the very last episode. When the last big monologue started, I was holding my fucking breath. By the time the credits started, I realized I had been crying without realizing. I finally had to give the show credit where it was due. This show was the real fucking deal, and I had to admit it.

I’ve always hated being wrong.

I’ve never been more happy with being proven wrong than with RvB. Even the fandom (which I usually stay on the fringes of with most things, preferring to watch from afar rather than getting involved) is great. For fuck’s sake I’ve never seen so much Ace’ spectrum representation before.

I can say that, last night I read a fic about an autistic Wash’ that was done in the style of his inner thoughts and I got emotional because “It sounds like how I think.” 

I’ve been in a lot of fandoms with huge character rosters. (for fucks sakes one of my home fandoms is Transformers) In all my fandoms I have never found one with as much MOGAI representation as this one. I distinctly remember going to sigma-enigma about not only the majority of the fics for my favorite character being ace, but the top rated fic was ace.

I’ve only been in the RvB fandom for a short time, but I can say that it’s one of my favorite fandoms to be in. The show is great, the fans are great, and I’m so happy I was wrong.  

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The Imitation Game 
"Now, Detective, you get to judge. That’s how the game works. I answered your questions. You know my story. That’s the point of the game. We are all pretending to be something. Imitating something. Someone. And we are no more, and no less, than what we can convince other people that we are."

Keck-led consortium finds gene changes that affect brain size

An international, collaborative study of the brain, led by researchers from the Keck School of Medicine of USC, has found eight common genetic mutations that seem to age the brain an average of three years – and result in smaller brains.

“Any change in those genes appears to alter your mental bank account or brain reserve by 2 or 3 percent,” said Paul Thompson, Keck School of Medicine of USC professor and principal investigator of the Enhancing Neuro Imaging Genetics Through Meta Analysis network, or ENIGMA.

The team of some 300 scientists at 190 global institutions pooled brain scans and genetic data from people in 33 countries.

“This crowdsourcing and sheer wealth of data gives us the power to crack the brain’s genetic code,” Thomson said. The work could lead to targeted therapies and interventions for Alzheimer’s disease, autism and other neurological conditions.

The research – the first high-profile study since the National Institutes of Health launched its Big Data to Knowledge Centers of Excellence last year – was published Jan. 21 in the peer-reviewed Nature.

Most likely to benefit

Using MRIs of more than 30,000 people, the researchers looked for genetic differences affecting the size of key parts of the brain that coordinate movement, learning, memory and motivation.

The group found eight genetic variants associated with reduced brain size, several in over one-fifth of the world’s population. Some of the genes are implicated in cancer and mental illness.

The next step is to investigate whether the genes, besides influencing brain size, also cause disease or reduced mental function.

Investing in big data

In October, the NIH invested nearly $32 million in its Big Data initiative, creating 12 research hubs across the United States to improve the utility of biomedical data. USC’s two Big Data to Knowledge Centers of Excellence, including ENIGMA, were awarded a total of $23 million over four years.

“The ENIGMA Center’s work uses vast data sets as engines of biomedical discovery; it shows how each individual’s genetic blueprint shapes the human brain,” said Philip Bourne, NIH associate director for data science.

USC co-authors included Derrek Hibar, Neda Jahanshad and Arthur Toga. ENIGMA was supported in part by a consortium grant from the NIH Big Data to Knowledge Initiative, supported by a cross-NIH partnership, and by public and private agencies worldwide.