so now that i work in a spa,

i’m starting to feel like i really need to keep up my appearance.

i guess i’ll stay on top of painting my nails and actually do my hair?

this seems hard. 

i have to wake up at 9 tomorrow (which is like 5 hours before i usually get up) for an ortho appointment, and then i work from 1 to 6. 

for most of you people who actually do things with your time, this probably sounds like a nice restful day, but for me, it’s going to be a little hard to get up and going and stay going. hopefully i can get some sleep tonight  so i can actually have a nice first day at work and not look like a fucking idiot. especially because it’s the ‘grand opening’ (even though they’ve been open for 4 months?) and it’s gonna be all special and exciting, and i have no idea how to do my job. 

but we all know that i’m going to go watch an entire disk of lost and just cry about my life tomorrow.

consider this your warning. 

i'm so nervous about my first shift at work tonight.

i’m closing, which i haven’t been really trained on yet, and i’m working with one of the owners, and a girl i’ve never met. 

i feel like i’m going to throw up. i shouldn’t be this scared.

what is wrong with me.