There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn’t need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise.
—  Emery Allen

I always try to make my words more
poetic when I write.

But there’s no beautiful way to write how
I feel, when I sit curled up on the
shower floor and how my cuts burn
when the water hits them
no beautiful way to write how
scared I feel, when i look in the the
mirror and I can’t believe what I’ve
become and the way my hands shake
because I can’t control a single bone
in my body
There’s no beautiful way to write how
my ribs feel like breaking because of
my heart beating so hard from feeling like
I don’t feel home in my own skin

Believe me,
I’ve tried to get better
I’ve tried to find happiness
but there’s no way
I can get this feeling of emptiness 
to leave