emotional scars

10 things I will tell my daughter about heartbreak 

  1.  You’ll find yourself crying yourself to sleep at 2 am with mascara heavily pouring down your face because he told you he didn’t love you anymore. You’ll feel darker than the circles that surround your eyes the next morning. The new mascara that you bought to impress him now just clouds your eyes, but he’s just not worth your tears 
  2.  When you don’t know what to do anymore because the emotional scars he left you with are more than you can handle, you’ll turn to drugs and alcohol as a way to cope with the pain. You will find yourself in the middle of the night drunk texting him and only having a bottle of vodka to comfort your tears. And when he doesn’t respond to the endless amount of texts and calls you left him, the only thing you’ll have is drugs to get him off your mind. You will show up at his door, high off your mind, begging for him back only to see that he’s moved on 
  3. Trying to grasp onto the wall to keep yourself from crumbling down will be the new thing you’re good at. You’ll be curled up in a ball wearing his old sweatshirt crying yourself to sleep for months after he leaves.  But please, take all his shit he left at your house and burn it. Burn all the things that bring back memories, do not let those things make you miss him 
  4.  You will not know what to do with yourself when he leaves. Its okay to sit in your bed days on end but you will have to get back up eventually. There will be no energy left in you because having your heart broken will suck all the life out of you. There will be no motivation to eat, shower, or communicate with anyone. This is normal just please don’t let this become a habit
  5.  The urges to talk to him will come in waves, very strong waves. You won’t be able to sleep because you miss him so much and not being able to make memories together or tell each other everything anymore will kill you. The voicemails you left him begging him to come back will just pile up on his phone but no matter how many texts/calls you leave him he’s not coming back 
  6. Nothing else will compare to the taste of these lips. You will fuck other people wishing that it’s him but it will just never be the same. You never thought that your last kiss would be your last so you will go and hookup with as many people as you can to get over him, but this won’t change the fact that he’s gone
  7. The words he engraved in you will take years to fully heal. All the “I love you’s” will endlessly haunt you and keep you wondering why he’s gone. All the love notes and cute little moments that was exchanged can never be undone. He never fully meant it when he told you how much you meant to him, even as much as he convinced you he did. You just have to allow yourself the strength to move forward. He did not love you 
  8. Just because he hurt you, do not hurt yourself. I know it feels like the world is crumbling down on you, but that does not give you an excuse to take the pain he caused you out on yourself. Carving his name into your skin will just make you wake up with more regrets than the regrets of losing him
  9. Whenever your phone lights up you’ll wish its him. After time, you will fill the empty void of him with another boy. Once he see’s you’re happily moved on, he will try coming back just to fuck with your head. He will finally see what he lost after all these months. But just promise, no matter how much you want to go back to him, do not. He broke your heart once and will do it again
  10.  You will never love someone else like you did your first love. This is the one that you experienced all your firsts with, they showed you what love is. There will be many more loves after this one, but you will never forget this one no matter how hard you try. You made him your world but you were nothing in his. One day, when you think you’re over him, you’ll see something that reminds you of him and you will go back and try to figure out what went wrong. Never ever give somebody to hurt you because no matter how hard you try, you can never truly forget them

anonymous asked:

any new fics out there that are heavy on feels? WIP are fine and longer is better. thanks!

They aren’t really new but oh


you have come to the right place, my friend

Haute Couture Love:  Eren Jaeger is sharp, determined and hard working but doesn’t consider himself beautiful or good looking in the least. When he lands his dream job, working at Survey Corp Publications as the Executive Assistant to a high-end Fashion magazine’s Editor-in-Chief, his life is turned Topsy-Turvy. All he wants to do is work hard to become an Editor, but his boss Levi seems keen on making his life a living hell.

Louder Than Words: My boyfriend, Eren Jaeger, disappeared ten days before his seventeenth birthday.Six months later, he was found again, completely intact save for his mental and emotional scars. Oh, and the fact that he would never be able to speak again.And so, we all started to rebuild from the debris that had been left in the destruction of our lives.

Help Me Stand:  Eren’s best childhood friend and high school boyfriend, Armin, dies in a car accident in which Eren had been the one at the wheel. Unable to keep from blaming himself, life itself becomes agonizing for Eren and he turns to the more negative side of coping mechanisms. Eventually, he meets a college student named Levi who seems like he has it all figured out, just to discover that they have more in common than he thought

What It Means To Feel: After his parents died, Eren Jaeger decides to take the ultimate solution to his unhappy life: suicide. But it doesn’t go the way he planned. Now, in a psychiatric hospital, Eren’s life is taken in all different directions, including a way to his new roommate, Levi.  He never would have guessed that suicide would bring him closer to living than he had ever been before.

Augenfresser:  Monsters did not like to hide under beds, as his father had told him. No; he found the monster hiding in his closet

1994: Before cell phones. Before the Kardashians. Before internet porn. The year is 1994. Eren, Mikasa, and Armin, poor kids from the wrong side of the tracks, have been transferred with the rest of their neighborhood to the posh, uptown Trost High (Home of the Titans). Mikasa and Armin seem to fit in well enough, but Eren isn’t quite so lucky. Of course, most of this has to do with Eren’s personality. When he accepts a bet to lose his virginity (and actually prove that someone likes him) by the end of the semester, it’s hard for him to deny the improbability of winning. After all, the only one he seems to be talking to these days is the weirdly pretty (and just plain weird) goth working at the donut shop down the street…

From The Woods: Eren is a dryad attached to the tree that stands in the yard of the house that Levi grew up in.

The 6th Ward: A comedy about being dead. Levi is finally returning to work as a nurse after recovering from a car crash that nearly killed him. Nothing says “welcome back” like realizing he’s lost his marbles and can see the disembodied spirits of the comatose patients in the 6th ward. He begrudgingly helps them learn how to be dead. Eren, the newest coma patient in the 6th ward, has six months to learn how to be dead. Good luck, kid.

The Minutes of the Red People: Levi is better at killing people than keeping them safe. He follows his routine - 7 hours of sleep, study the blueprints, pack the tools of the trade, carry out the assassination, mop up the blood and leave no speck of evidence. It isn’t too long before he finds his routine in shambles when Erwin Smith assigns him a mission riddled with “classified” and “no further details disclosed”. Levi doesn’t kill kids. It gets his conscience dirty.

Speak!:  Eren doesn’t exactly have the best home life, far from it in fact. A chance meeting with Levi, a mysterious young man who keeps his secrets close, is the one person who could take his world to a whole new level of chaos and wonder. Bonds are forged and feelings change, but will they be strong enough to face the challenges that lie in their future and the secrets in their pasts?

Read the warnings! Some of the have non-con elements and very explicit violence

anonymous asked:

Is it more is was ERZA looking gorgeous in 429 :))

Beautiful!!! As always!!! I think she must be trying her very best to overcome the emotional scars she received last arc.