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The Frerard Theories: Burn Bright.

Disclaimer: I’m not saying that this is the truth as for only Gerard and Frank know what the truth was. This is just a 20 year old girl who gets bored enough sometimes to analyze lyrics, and let me tell you, as an English Literature student I’m pretty damn good at it. If you don’t like frerard, don’t continue reading. I don’t want to change your mind, I don’t want for you to try and change mine. If you want to discuss something in a civilized way, feel free to contact me but otherwise I’m not interested. Also, note that I won’t ever, ever in my whole life go harassing these two men with frerard stuff because they have expressed they don’t like it and it’s disrespectful to not comply with what they want.

Burn Bright.

So give me all you’ve got, I can take it. We walked alone in your city lights. Did you make it? We lit the fire and it’s burning bright. Did you take it? Kissed all the boys in your city lights Did you make it? Left all the stars in your city nights, can you fake it? I lost my way in your city lights, clutching me, we stole the fire and it’s burning bright. So give me all you’ve got, I can take it. We walked around in your city lights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. We lit the fire and it’s burning bright. Not ashamed of what I am, I took the pills for these empty nights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. They always told me that “You’ll never get to heaven with a life like yours. Well, if you’re lost, little boy, oh, well, the cameras pull you right back down, yeah. It’s like a chemical burn, I’m peeling off your skin, yeah. And when you see your face, well, you’ll never be the same again, yeah.” Cause if you just stop breathing, I’ll stop, I’ll stop my heart I’ll stop breathing too. So give me all you’ve got, I can take it. We walked around in your city lights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. We lit the fire, and it’s burning bright. Not ashamed of what I am, I’d trade the world for your city nights, ‘cause it makes me who I am and it makes me who I am. And though I missed the chance for this, I confess that I can’t wait, until it’s gone. No I mean this every single day. So go if you can’t burn inside, ‘cause the world don’t need another hopeless cause, though it makes me who I am, ‘cause it makes me who I am and you made me who I am. Be afraid of what I am. I can take it, we walked around in your city lights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. I burned it all and I’m doin’ fine. ‘Cause I’ll never fade away, if I steal the fire from your city nights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. Who I am.

What this song is about, at least for me, is Gerard’s sexuality and how Frank made him realize who he was, and how he can’t quite deal with it because it’s “wrong.” The first line is So give me all you’ve got, I can take it. I think what this means is that Gerard is now ready to take everything Frank has. When you give someone everything you’ve got it’s because you’re in a relationship, you let them see you when you’re most vulnerable. Then, he goes on with We walked alone in your city lights. Did you make it? We lit the fire and it’s burning bright. I believe that this means that they had to hide, walking alone in (Frank’s) city lights. They started to walk the path of their relationship and “lit the fire” of their passion, which is still burning bright (alive).

Did you take it? Kissed all the boys in your city lights. This is where you realize that this song is about Gerard struggling with his sexuality. He is singing about kissing boys, and about how society has taught us that this is something bad or sinful. Did you make it? Left all the stars in your city nights. Stars are something really meaningful in Literature. They have bewildered the human kind through history, and many authors have used them in their works (See Shakespeare’s love sonnets or even Nietzsche). Stars are usually used in romantic scenes, meaning adventure, mystery or imagination. I believe this line means “have you forgotten all our moments together or have you left them inside your mind where you replay them again and again?”

can you fake it? I lost my way in your city lights, clutching me, we stole the fire and it’s burning bright. Then, he’s asking Frank if he can fake it anymore. If he can continue with his plastic life, like Gerard is doing and that’s the real struggle of their relationship. I think “lost my way in your city lights” means that he lost the way to Heaven, to salvation (from a religious point of view) in Frank. They “stole” the fire and it’s still alive, and it’s still burning them and hurting them. I think he uses “steal” because stealing is another sin, and what they are doing is supposedly sinful according to the bible.

So give me all you’ve got, I can take it. We walked around in your city lights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. Again, I think this is referring to Gee being ready to take the next step. To Gerard being ready to take everything Frank has, whether it’s good or bad. And walking with Frank, being with Frank, is what makes him who he is, his real self. Like he only can be himself when he’s with Frank because he’s the only one who knows about him being interested in guys. I think Frank is the exception of every rule Gerard has. I believe he thought he was straight until he started crushing on Frank, and he realized that maybe he wasn’t as straight as he thought he was. And that made him find himself, and maybe accept himself. Maybe he wasn’t ready to tell the world, but he was at peace with himself. It could’ve been tough at first, that’s why all the drugs and alcohol happened, because sometimes you’re struggling with knowing yourself and accepting that maybe you’re different and you need an escape. And maybe drugs and alcohol were that escape for Gerard, and back then he wasn’t ready to take everything Frank had, but he was ready when he was writing this. I don’t know when he wrote this song, but I believe it was when Frank was in LeATHERMOUTH and he needed him, and Gerard was ready to do whatever it needed to be done in order to take Frank back.

We lit the fire and it’s burning bright. Not ashamed of what I am, I took the pills for these empty nights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. Again, they lit the fire of their relationship, of their passion. And maybe Gerard was ashamed of what he was when it started, but he wasn’t anymore. He “took the pills for (those) empty nights” and this for me has two meanings: he took the pills for when Frank was away, to shush the pain away, or he took the pills in order to accept himself and forget about everything, and he’s referring to the first years of MCR. “Empty nights” could mean nights with meaningless one night stands, they didn’t mean anything and Gerard could forget, but at the end he was left feeling alone and empty, and maybe that’s what made him realize who he was and what he wanted. And that made him who he was. He isn’t ashamed of being an addict, it’s something he is and a mistake he made, but on the long run it’s something that makes him himself, and maybe it made him appreciate what he had with Frank even more.

They always told me that “You’ll never get to heaven with a life like yours. I think this line gives a lot away. I believe Gerard here is referring to religion, and how Christians think that non-straight people are doomed to hell. Bear in mind that Gerard does come from a catholic environment, that his parents are catholic, as well as Frank’s. And when you’re raised a certain way, it’s going to affect you in so many ways, and maybe Gerard’s parents aren’t this kind of uptight people who pray every night and think that everything is sinful, but still, Gerard grew up in this kind of environment. And maybe it wasn’t his parents, maybe it was a teacher at school or the media or the church he attended on Sundays, but homophobia was really present in society when Gerard grew up. And this has affected him, because he was told that non-straight people don’t go to heaven, they burn in hell. And that’s what this song is about.

Well, if you’re lost, little boy, oh, well, the cameras pull you right back down, yeah. Basically, if you’re lost, let other people tell you where to go. Let the church guide you. I’m not against religion, not at all. I don’t give a fuck about what other people believe in, it’s their choice and I have nothing to say about it. But I am against the catholic church as an institution. I am against church as a way of controlling the masses, because that’s what it does. And I think the church is really, really public right now, at least in my country it is. Religion is a personal choice, and it shouldn’t be imposed by the state. And I think that’s what Gerard is referring to here, “cameras” are the church, and how the media is influenced by religion. And how you have to listen to what they have to say about your fucking life and your choices, because it’s the word of god. And if you don’t listen to what they have to say about your life, and how you have to live and how you have to be, if you don’t fit into those standards, you’re evil. And you’re gonna rot in hell.

It’s like a chemical burn, I’m peeling off your skin, yeah. And when you see your face, well, you’ll never be the same again, yeah.” I believe “peeling off your skin” means taking away from you everything you are, depriving you of your personality and your traits only to fit into the society they have created. Basically, if you aren’t a straight person in a 9 to 5 corporate job, with two kids and living in the suburbs, and you don’t go to church every Sunday, then you have no place in Western society. You are deprived of your dreams and aspirations, of everything you are, and then you look at the mirror one day and realize that you have no fucking idea who is that person looking back at you. I think that Gerard is claiming here his right of being who he wants to be, his right to originality and his right of making mistakes and living however the fuck he wants. And he isn’t going to let anyone “clean” all his sins, because it’s our mistakes that makes us who we are.

Cause if you just stop breathing, I’ll stop, I’ll stop my heart I’ll stop breathing too. Again, I think this song was written when Frank was with LeATHERMOUTH. You only have to look at LeATHERMOUTH lyrics to know that Frank was hurt, and that he was pissed and depressed. So I think this line means that if Frank gives up, Gerard isn’t going to be able to live with it. He wants Frank to know that he’s important, and that he loves him.

Not ashamed of what I am, I’d trade the world for your city nights, ‘cause it makes me who I am and it makes me who I am. Again, this song is about Gerard being himself. Everything that he can possibly be, good or bad. An addict and an inspiration. The saved one and the savior. Gerard is all those things, he was lost but he found himself again, and he helped a lot of people doing so. And he can’t just erase all his mistakes, because that’d be like erasing himself and everything he is. And the “city nights” with Frank is what makes him who he is, and he would give everything up for those nights. I think Gerard was himself with Frank. No hiding, no pretending. Just Frank and him, against the world. Have you ever realized how comfortable Gerard acted around Frank? He was relaxed, he looked at him like Frank was the most precious thing in this world, and Frank did the same with Gerard. They were able to be who they wanted to be with the other, and Gerard wants that, because that’s what makes him who he is.

And though I missed the chance for this, I confess that I can’t wait, until it’s gone. This just fits really well with the timing. Gerard felt like he had missed his chance with Frank, Frank not talking to him and all, and Gerard cannot wait until the chance is gone forever. He can’t stay still as he sees Frank fade away from him. Gerard fucked up in ProjRev, he fucked up real bad, and he knows it. And he knows that Frank has every right to be pissed at him, but he still loves him. And what Gerard does best is being an artist, write songs. So that’s the only way he can let Frank know how he really feels, and that’s the only way he can let Frank know that he’s not ashamed of their relationship, but he’s not prepared to make it public.

No I mean this every single day. So go if you can’t burn inside, ‘cause the world don’t need another hopeless cause This is Gerard telling Frank that the world doesn’t need to know. That he means what he’s saying about not being ashamed and all, but the world doesn’t need another hopeless cause. They can burn inside together and alone, and they can be together in private, and he’s not ashamed of it. He’s just not ready.

though it makes me who I am, ‘cause it makes me who I am and you made me who I am. Be afraid of what I am. I can take it, we walked around in your city lights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. I burned it all and I’m doin’ fine. ‘Cause I’ll never fade away, if I steal the fire from your city nights, ‘cause it makes me who I am. Who I am. This summarizes the whole point of the song. Frank makes him who he is, but he’s afraid of being who he really is in public, even though he’s not ashamed. And he can take the pain of being together only in private if that means they get to be together at all, because that’s how Gerard is. He burned all he had, he sent it to hell and he put himself on his way to hell, but he’s doing fine. Because Frank is fueling him, with his city nights and his love for Gerard. And he’s making Gerard be who he really is, and that’s the only thing Gerard needs. He doesn’t need the world to know, and he most certainly doesn’t need the world to approve. He only needs Frank and the fire of their relationship, and he only needs Frank to never fade away. He’s not ashamed of being this way, of being with Frank. He’s just scared, and he’s not ready.

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The Chasing of Moons

Chapter eight summary: Just for the record, the plural of sheep is sheep.

Rated: Explicit/R

Fandom: My Chemical Romance

Summary: The biggest dilemma in all of this is that Frank slept with his future husband. Now Frank’s just got to make sure that the future with him stays intact, but it’s not so easy when present day Gerard seems to hate his guts.

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So in my brothers school the 7th Grade have to write a story based on war, so he was on my computer without me knowing to see if I had already written a story based on war and he stumbled across a frerard smut I wrote based on a The Ghost Of You, he read the first line thought “that’s good enough” and eMAILED IT TO HIS TEACHER. HE EMAILED HIS TEACHER MY FRERARD SMUT AND oMG. He still doesn’t know.