The Lord of Chaos

Discord is Leftism, and Leftism is chaos.

The reality of Equestria is not a reality, it is a dream - A peaceful reflection of a happy persons acceptance of the world, the natural way it functions, the role and purpose of everything and everyone. Each and everypony, zebra, buffalo, whatever, lives as they are fit for, doing what they find rewarding, finding their aptitude and nurturing it. Until one day, a minor disagreement breaks out due to a confusion of language.

3 little ponies can’t decide whether chaos is discord, or discord is disharmony, or whatever. Language is abstract, and therefore cannot match reality exactly, and so a little crack opens up. And the ponies begin to bicker over nothing.

Soon, 3 friends are fighting over which of their words is correct, and the discord between interpretation of the world and the world itself widens. Discord is unleashed.

I woke up this morning, got my cereal and shit, and made the mistake of looking at a newspaper - A left wing paper, The Guardian. In it, people who expressed concern that people immigrating into the country might harbour resentment to the natives were called “xenophobic.” Others who suggested that differences in gender representation in the workforce were down to natural inclination and aptitude were “misogynist.” Those wary of known terrorist supporters were “bigots.” Any and all acknowledgements of the reality of things were made small and quaint and backward under a torrent of abuse. The discord between the interpretation of the world and the world was so intense it was no longer a crack, but a gaping maw.

Leftism, ultimately, is a refusal of reality. It is a refusal to account for ones own being in the world and improve upon it, choosing instead to pursue a fantasy ideal. Like the protagonist of Fight Club and Karl Marx, we become leftist when we refuse to acknowledge our own flaws and faults and improve them. It becomes imperative to smash the existing world, because it reminds us of our own flaws. In order to seize power over the world to offset our lack of power over ourselves, we must become revolutionaries. We must destroy and invert the existing order of things through deceit, so that we may sit on the throne. Doublethink is created. Loaded political terms are drafted, and papers like The Guardian published.

And this is exactly what Discord does. He lies to everypony. He takes their knowledge of what is real and poisons it. When confronted with Fluttershy, who accepts her place in things completely, he shows his true lack of self control and loses his temper, and brainwashes her after playing on her fears doesn’t work. He tells them they are racists, bigots, far-right thugs, quaint, old-fashioned, archaic, xenophobic, misogynistic, hateful. When they believe him, they become his playthings.

Discord is a monster. A horrible, cobbled-together incoherence. All animals have shapes that are the result of becoming the best shape to exist in a specific way. Discord is not constrained by the realities of supply and demand - He has parts of every animal, but because he is disconnected from reality through lies, no part serves any real purpose. It’s as is he has been trying to become whatever was in fashion at the time, or trying to imitate in order to deceive. Very, very much like the state - A cold monster that lies, that distorts itself into imitations of the genuine article. Economically, Discord is the NHS. Discord is a thousand petty bylaws and an army of bureaucrats, regulating away against obvious reality.

Discord is a leftist, and like all leftists, a revolutionary. The old and stable order of things must be abolished in order to make way for his ascension to the throne. Art and culture must be destroyed, along with the patriarchy, the monarchy, the christian faith. Patriotism and the family must be ground into dust. The world must be turned on its head, and be made flat. Equestria becomes inverted. The clouds turn, the ground buckles, animals distort and become twisted parodies of their former selves.

In truth, God is just the name we give to the better part of our conscious, the part that tells us to do what is right by the universe. It seems fitting that a so called religion that endorses mass slaughter would like to confuse this small voice by giving it 99 different names. Discord - Satan - Is the mirror image, he is prideful one that wishes to do away with harmony in order to seize ones own selfish desires. Discord is not God, but a god. A god, to quote Dan Simmons, of pure, arbitrary power. A 9/11 god. An Auschwitz god.

I put down my newspaper, and walk to work. I try to ignore the closed up shopfronts, the homeless, the broken roads. I avoid the stares of the mixed race teenage boys hulking possessively around a gaggle of self loathing white teenage girls. I try not to feel shaken by the threatening swagger of a guy in uniform who is twice my size and clearly two continents removed from myself. I get into my workplace to settle in for a day of writing faux-altruist journalism to earn a crust, and sup my morning coffee. Above the darkening clouds, a demonic laugh fills the skies. 

World GDP Crashes Relative To China.

The Incredible Shrinking World (Relative To China)

In the midst of a debacle such as the the one under way in Washington currently and the finger-wagging from various foreign entities (read China) (that Jack Lew himself warned Congress would be more than happy to replace the USD as world reserve currency), we thought the above simple chart useful for some context as to the rest of the world’s “growth.”



From the beginning of time material possessions have been greatly valued and though Judaism encourages otherwise, the only reason why it’s now seen as a problem is because the pursue of those material things has had a negative influence in peoples life.

Things were ok when it was just Chinese laborers working for pennies on the dollar in filthy conditions, or slaves being sold like cattle - just as long as it never came close to home. Now the general population is being affected and some people are starting to wake up. Its a process and I don’t have a problem with capitalism - I have more of a problem with how little people love themselves which opens the way for them to become prey to corporations.

Its been done over and over again… People without much self love and little sense of individuality become easy prey and that’s a majority of the population. It’s really quite similar to the drug war; it gives way for a much uglier truth.

Materialism won’t ever necessarily go away but I do hope to see more and more people in my lifetime being conscious about their wants and needs and it’s consequences.

Progress At All Costs; Even The Entire Planet If Necessary.

Photo; Mountain Top removal in West Virginia for coal.

Progress gets to act out one more symbolic triumph over its eternal enemies.  

Modern industrial civilization faces serious challenges in the years immediately before us, as the paired jaws of resource depletion and environmental disruption clamp down ever more tightly on it, and the consequences of decades of bad decisions come home to roost. In order to deal with those challenges, hard questions need to be asked and realistic answers considered—and this isn’t furthered at all by the tendency on the part of so many people these days to lapse into cheerleading instead. It’s rather as though you were trying to have a serious discussion about educational policy with someone whose only response to anything you said was to shout, “Central High, Central High, rah, rah, rah!”

Any number of examples of this could be quoted, but the one I’d like to discuss here  is the way that fracking—hydrofracturing of oil and gas-bearing shales, to give it its more precise moniker—has been transformed, at least in the popular imagination, into the conclusive answer to those annoying little worries about the impossibility of extracting an infinite amount of petroleum from a finite planet. 

Not that long ago in America, the ritual theater of progress was adaptive, to borrow a bit of jargon from ecology: more often than not, those who extracted more resources, burnt more energy, built more infrastructure, and produced more goods and services prospered, and so did their communities.  Every disagreement about economic development, as I showed last week, was therefore forced into what amounts to a ceremonial pattern that guaranteed that the proponents of progress would win every round. When the limits to growth were still far off, when it was still possible to pretend that resources were infinite and the environment’s capacity to absorb pollutants was just as limitless, that was a successful strategy.

 A significant proportion of the hoopla over fracking is being orchestrated by those wonderful folks on Wall Street who brought you last decade’s housing bubble and bust, and the same kind of financial shenanigans that nearly capsized the global economy in 2008 and 2009 are being applied with gusto to a burgeoning bubble in shale leases and the like. Fourth, and most critically, the increasingly frantic cheerleading being devoted to the fracking industry these days is simply one more delay in the process of coming to grips with the real crisis of our time—the need to decouple as much as possible of industrial society from its current dependence on fossil fuels. As Heinberg points out, there aren’t enough economically recoverable fossil fuels left in the planet’s crust to keep the world chugging ahead on a business-as-usual track of economic growth for much longer, but there’s more than enough to finish the job of destabilizing the Earth’s climate and pitching us face first into a very difficult future.


The Carbon Fuel Bubble Threatens Global Economies

The world could be heading for a major economic crisis as stock marketsinflate an investment bubble in fossil fuels to the tune of trillions of dollars, according to leading economists.

“The financial crisis has shown what happens when risks accumulate unnoticed,” said Lord (Nicholas) Stern, a professor at the London School of Economics. He said the risk was “very big indeed” and that almost all investors and regulators were failing to address it.

The so-called “carbon bubble” is the result of an over-valuation of oil,coal and gas reserves held by fossil fuel companies. According to a report published on Friday, at least two-thirds of these reserves will have to remain underground if the world is to meet existing internationally agreed targets to avoid the threshold for “dangerous" climate changeIf the agreements hold, these reserves will be in effect unburnable and so worthless – leading to massive market losses. But the stock markets are betting on countries’ inaction on climate change.

The stark report is by Stern and the thinktank Carbon Tracker. Their warning is supported by organisations including HSBC, Citi, Standard and Poor’s and the International Energy Agency. The Bank of England has also recognised that a collapse in the value of oil, gas and coal assets as nations tackle global warming is a potential systemic risk to the economy, with London being particularly at risk owing to its huge listings of coal.


Gendering Ethnicity: Implications for Democracy Assistance (Issues in Globalization)

Gendering Ethnicity: Implications for Democracy Assistance (Issues in Globalization)
Democracy, anticipated by American and other Western powers to prevent economic chaos and political conflict within and among states, is not evolving as expected. This research argues that part of the failure resides in United States democracy assistance’s inadequate consideration of gender within democracy programming.

Collapse Of The Petroleum Economy Is Absolutely Guaranteed - 5 Years? 10? Who Knows When? But It Is Inevitable Soon.

Photo; Abandoned Detroit Manufacturing Building


The previous (& current) peak oil (collapse) paradigm had the world unthinkingly running out of oil. (Oil was) imagined to supply “a huge proportion” of world energy, and (it was) impossible to substitute either through alternate energy supply, or through reducing energy demand. Substitutability among other economic resources of all kinds, including global labour resources, was imagined as almost zero, or very slow.(Therefore the Global Economy would collapse).

The Green growth paradigm was “We can have a steady state economy forever”, (by substituting fossil fuel energy with clean renewable energy). However, like the non-green or Grey growth paradigm (above), both of these paradigms were crippled by their unspoken assumption, that oil and energy prices would stay high.

(The third possible future is one of economic decline, energy decline & collapse of the fossil fuel debt based Petro-economy). Although we remain dependent on fossil fuels for food supply, producing metals and operating cities, this is unrelated to the financial system’s vast and towering overload of debt. Oil and hydrocarbon energy resource depletion is a multi-century problem but the “debt bubble” concerns the near-term and managing debt was in large part based on those crippled assumptions, above, which we can summarize this way:

(i) *Economic growth at high rates is not only desirable, but is now obligatory to save the system.

(ii) *High oil and energy prices are caused by economic growth, and support borrowing for growth.

(iii) Economic Growth & high energy prices are now impossible. The above system collapses

At its extremes, the “Peak Oil doom scenario” held that worldwide famine would result from oil resource exhaustion. In fact the global agricultural and food sector’s reaction and response to a decade of high-priced oil includes radical changes towards near-zero net energy farming, that is farming operations producing as much energy as they consume, albeit of different types. At its most extreme the “Global Warming doom scenario” held that intensifying the shift to Green energy required oil prices above $200 a barrel and carbon taxes up to $500 per tonne CO2 (equivalent to an additional oil tax of about $150 per barrel). Under that energy fantasy price scenario, a total shift away from coal, oil and gas is inevitable and would come rapidly.

The fantasy vision of oil prices at $200 or $250 per barrel would, if it became reality, firstly cause a radical intensification of shale oil, shale gas and stranded gas-LNG development, further intensifying the retreat from and death of oil. The fantasy vision of oil prices effortlessly able to continually grow, treated as if it was feasible, has for example levered major corporate borrowing and investor support, and state financial support to electric car and vehicle development, which to use Thatcher’s famous one-liner has No Future without extreme oil prices. Yet another lame duck industry based on debt!

The new energy-economic and financial paradigm is simple. “Overshoot and collapse” is now programmed into world energy financing and energy economics, due to energy prices necessarily falling but being thought of as “impossible” for too long.

Other ramifications of this crisis are, for certain, less stark or more subtle but are very wide ranging. Entities as apparently immune as the IMF and global central banks are examples - dependent on or accustomed to “hot money” petrodollar and petroeuro flows. Even fiscal drag in the energy intensive Western economies is another example. Drugged on high energy like the corporate sector, governments have a touching but blind faith in high-price energy.

One example, already mentioned, is the near-total dependence of the Green paradigm and Climate consciousness on high oil and energy prices. Only partly known to or accepted by the persons and entities working this now-depleting lode of public sympathy and support, either a debt collapse or an oil price collapse will not only bring down investment and interest in all fossil fuels, but will accelerate the already existing decline of investment support and new capacity in renewable energy.

Quite simply we will need less energy - so why produce more?


Resource Depletion: As World Oil Reserves Dwindle, Global Economic Chaos Gets Closer.

Ex govt adviser: “global market shock” from “oil crash” could hit in 2015

A former oil man calls for renewable “Renaissance” to ward off shale dystopia

In a new book, former oil geologist and government adviser on renewable energy, Dr. Jeremy Leggett, identifies five “global systemic risks directly connected to energy” which, he says, together “threaten capital markets and hence the global economy” in a way that could trigger a global crash sometime between 2015 and 2020.

According to Leggett, a wide range of experts and insiders “from diverse sectors spanning academia, industry, the military and the oil industry itself, including until recently the International Energy Agency or, at least, key individuals or factions therein” are expecting an oil crunch “within a few years,” most likely “within a window from 2015 to 2020.”

Interconnected risks

Despite its serious tone, The Energy of Nations: Risk Blindness and the Road to Renaissance, published by the reputable academic publisherRoutledge, makes a compelling and ultimately hopeful case for the prospects of transitioning to a clean energy system in tandem with a new form of sustainable prosperity.

The five risks he highlights cut across oil depletion, carbon emissions, carbon assets, shale gas, and the financial sector:

“A market shock involving any one these would be capable of triggering a tsunami of economic and social problems, and, of course, there is no law of economics that says only one can hit at one time.”

At the heart of these risks, Leggett argues, is our dependence on increasingly expensive fossil fuel resources. His wide-ranging analysis pinpoints the possibility of a global oil supply crunch as early as 2015. “Growing numbers of people in and around the oil industry”, he says, privately consider such a forecast to be plausible. “If we are correct, and nothing is done to soften the landing, the twenty-first century is almost certainly heading for an early depression.”

Leggett also highlights the risk of parallel developments in the financial sector:

“Growing numbers of financial experts are warning that failure to rein in the financial sector in the aftermath of the financial crash of 2008 makes a second crash almost inevitable.”

A frequent Guardian contributor, Leggett has had a varied career spanning multiple disciplines. A geologist and former oil industry consultant for over a decade whose research on shale was funded by BP and Shell, he joined Greenpeace International in 1989 over concerns about climate change. As the organisation’s science director he edited alandmark climate change report published by Oxford University Press.

Industry’s bad bet

Leggett points to an expanding body of evidence that what he calls “the incumbency” - “most of the oil and gas industries, their financiers, and their supporters and defenders in public service” - have deliberately exaggerated the quantity of fossil fuel reserves, and the industry’s capacity to exploit them. He points to a leaked email from Shell’s head of exploration to the CEO, Phil Watts, dated November 2003:

“I am becoming sick and tired of lying about the extent of our reserves issues and the downward revisions that need to be done because of far too aggressive/ optimistic bookings.”

Leggett reports that after admitting that Shell’s reserves had been overstated by 20%, Watts still had to “revise them down a further three times.” The company is still reeling from the apparent failure of investments in the US shale gas boom. Last October the Financial Timesreported that despite having invested “at least $24bn in so-called unconventional oil and gas in North America”, so far the bet “has yet to pay off.” With its upstream business struggling “to turn a profit”, Shell announced a “strategic review of its US shale portfolio after taking a $2.1bn impairment.” Shell’s outgoing CEO Peter Voser admitted that the US shale bet was a big regret: “Unconventionals did not exactly play out as planned.”

Leggett thus remains highly sceptical that shale oil and gas will change the game. Despite “soaring drilling rates,” US tight oil production has lifted “only around a million barrels a day.” As global oil consumption is at around 90 milion barrels a day, with conventional crude depleting “by over four million barrels a day of capacity each year” according to International Energy Agency (IEA) data, tight oil additions “can hardly be material in the global picture.” He reaches a similar verdict for shale gas, which he notes “contributes well under 1% of US transport fuel.”

Even as Prime Minister David Cameron has just reiterated the government’s commitment to prioritise shale, Leggett says:

“Shale-gas drilling has dropped off a cliff since 2009. It is only a matter of time now before US shale-gas production falls. This is not material to the timing of a global oil crisis.”

In an interview, he goes further, questioning the very existence of a real North American ‘boom’: “How it can be that there is a prolonged and sustainable shale boom when so much investment is being written off in America - $32 billion at the last count?”

It is a question that our government, says Leggett, is ignoring.


Glass Half Full in Cramer's Eyes

“Stay the course,” Jim Cramer advised viewers of his “Mad Money” TV show Thursday, as he used the occasion to deal with palpable fears on Wall Street.

Cramer said since few investors even know what the worst case scenario looks like, he took a moment to outline what the bears and fear mongers have been harping about all these weeks.

Cramer said in the worst case scenario, Greece defaults on its debts, which causes people to stop buying bonds. That, in turn, causes other nations to go belly up, sending Europe into a giant recession that will cost hundreds of thousands of jobs and probably take out a huge number of foreign banks as well.

In the U.S., the ripple effect will likely result in a few of our banks getting taken out and cause the already fragile U.S. economy to slip back into recession. Unemployment will head even higher, and construction, what little of it there is, will disappear.

As for the markets, Cramer said investors will flock to the safety stocks with high dividends, as the entire market will likely give up 60% of its gains since the lows of 2008.

On the bright side, Cramer noted that commodity prices will plummet, which will cause China to stop tightening its economy. Eventually, he said, stocks will get so cheap that a bottom will occur. Food stocks and those that benefit from lower commodities will begin to outperform, as will the industrial stocks that benefit from a growing China. From there, Cramer said, the markets will begin to rebound.

The End Game Has Arrived: ‘All Signs and Evidence Point to the Great Global Economic Reset’

Editor’s Note: We are getting close. As you’ll see in the analysis provided by Brandon Smith of Alt Market below, the elite puppeteers behind everything from finance to politics are now entering the end game of their decades’ long machinations. With no loyalty to any particular nation or people, they operate with impunity and have become so arrogant that the very people who created the many…

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Luke 18:31-34

This Sunday, Pastor Peter introduced these verses by sharing predictions throughout history that did not come true. One that most of us will be familiar with was Y2K. Some of us may have stayed up until midnight in anxiety of what might happen, but I’m willing to bet most of us went to sleep that night as if it were any other night. 

While all analogies break down at a certain point, the different ways people approached Y2K somewhat resemble how we approach the 2nd coming - ensuring we have done everything to be prepared or indifferent. Regardless of which group we may fall into, it’s safe t say that the predictions of economic chaos did not come true. 

In the verses we studied in Luke 18, Jesus gives a detailed prediction of 7 things that will happen to Him when they go to Jerusalem - and we know that these were all fulfilled as was prophesied. Take a moment to consider the weight of the reality that for mercy to come into the world, Jesus had to die and that He knew this. None of this came as a surprise to Jesus and it was a part of God’s plan from the very beginning. 

In 1 Timothy 1:15 Paul writes, “The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost.”

In your groups tonight, discuss the following:

  1. Where does your mind go and how does it make you feel when you consider that God planned the death of Jesus?
  2. When did you first begin to grasp the significance of the death of Jesus? What caused you to think about it?
  3. When did your understanding the significance of Jesus’ death move you to trust Him for the forgiveness of your sins?
  4. How did your life change after you came to this realization?
  5. What difference does knowing this make in your day to day life? 
Politics News - UK Politics: The choice this election gets clearer by the day

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Politics news: Prime Minister David Cameron and his coalition government with Nick Clegg and the latest on the Conservative, Labour and Liberal Democrat parties.

The choice this election gets clearer by the day
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What Greece Faces if It Defaults |

What Greece Faces if It Defaults |

Argentina lurched into nightmarish chaos.

Economic activity was paralyzed, supermarket prices soared and pharmaceutical companies withdrew their products as the peso lost three-quarters of its value against the dollar. With private medical insurance firms virtually bankrupt and the public health system on the brink of collapse, badly needed drugs for cancer, H.I.V. and heart conditions soon…

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10 ‘Comedies’ That Were Secretly Really Depressing

10 ‘Comedies’ That Were Secretly Really DepressingCBS Films

Because it’s assumed they’re fundamentally supposed to be about making you laugh, you generally expect comedy movies to bring some sense of happiness to your day. There’s no sense in seeing a comedy if all it’s going to do is bring you down – with climate change, economic chaos and massive inequality dragging the world to the edge of collapse, things are already depressing enough.

It can be pretty distressing, then, when you get to the cinema only to find that that film that looked nice and amusing in the trailers is in actual fact rather gloomy. That’s what you’d call a ‘botched advertising campaign’, and they happen all the time; for instance, just because it seems like a good way to get the punters in, a fairly downbeat film with one or two humorous moments might be sold by the marketing team as a straight comedy.

It’s a risky tactic, and one that often leads to audience disappointment and a feeling they’ve been tricked. Worse when it’s a particularly depressing film is the feeling that you’ve just paid money to be both deceived and despondent.

In this century alone, there have been a number of cases of films selling themselves as comedies when really the truth was much more complicated, and much, much darker. Here are ten of the finest examples.

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Janet Porter: Gay Marriage To Blame For Noah’s Flood, Will Usher In End Times + MORE

John Hagee: The World Will Face A Global Economic Crisis In The Fall Of 2015


On this week’s “Hagee Hotline,” John Hagee warned viewers to prepare themselves for a global economic collapse that will happen this fall, during which half of the world’s wealth will be wiped out.
Coupling his own “blood moons” theory with Jonathan Cahn’s “shemitah year” theory, Hagee warned that the world is now on the verge of total economic chaos…

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Janet Porter: Gay Marriage To Blame For Noah’s Flood, Will Usher In End Times


Faith 2 Action founder and anti-gay filmmaker Janet Porter has a message for the Supreme Court: Strike down bans on same-sex marriage, and the whole world may be doomed.
In her daily radio bulletin today, Porter once again claimed that gay marriage was responsible for Noah’s Flood.
She even suggested that such a move by the court could lead to the Second Coming: “If this is true, we are uniquely positioned for the return of Christ like no other time in history…

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Injured ISIS leader replaced with ex-physics teacher


(Newsweek) The Islamic State’s temporary leader is a former Iraqi physics teacher located in the country’s second-biggest city, Mosul, the adviser to the Iraqi government on ISIS has revealed.

Yesterday, it was reported by the Guardian that the terror group’s caliph, Abu Bakr al-Baghdadi, was seriously wounded in a U…

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Tony Perkins: Obama & Gay Rights Movement Inspire ISIS To Murder Christians


Family Research Council President Tony Perkins has tried to use violence against Middle East Christians as a way to attack gay rights and campaign finance reform efforts in the U.S., and now he is linking the firing of Atlanta fire chief Kevin Cochran, who was found in violation of city employment practices when he distributed to employees a self-published book that included attacks on homosexuality, to the slaughter of Christians by the terrorist group ISIS…

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Lee, Bruce (2015, April 6)  “In the middle of chaos lies opportunity.” Retrieved from

I chose this quote because I watched a video on YouTube last night–the preacher said that Paul went to prison for teaching the good Word of God, but the authorities arrested him for that. In essence, Paul ended up writing Philippians from his prison cell. I would never have read Philippians if the authorities never arrested Paul. Right now, I am struggling with relationships and economics but throughout this chaos, I have decided to keep a journal. In a way I am like Paul, who wrote Philippians except I have no idea if anybody but myself will benefit from my journal. I put it up to God.