Just be honest to yourself. Being alone smoking some blunts and listening to fuckin good music or reading the shit out of your fav book is so much better than staying with people you do not really like at all having to talk bout shit isn’t worth to waste even one fucking thought on, just cause you’re afraid to miss sth. You should not be afraid of being alone, you should enjoy it as much as you can. You’re free to potter at things enriching your mind. That’s the best thing you can do.