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FINALLY!!!

This morning I decided to check my DACA application online and I finally saw that I have been approved! Of course it would get approved on the day I didn’t check it, which was yesterday.  When I checked it today I really wasn’t even expecting it to have been approved just because every other time I checked it it was always at initial review.  So now I have to wait until I get the letter in the mail saying I was approved.  I’m so excited! it doesn’t feel any different right now but I know that once I get the actual work permit card and then get my social it’ll feel surreal because I’m so used to being undocumented and knowing that I now have legal papers it’ll feel different.  I hope that I can get at least a permit soon since I have to wait until I’m 19 to get my license which is fine since I’m in no rush due to the fact that I know I or my parents wouldn’t be able to afford a car right now or any time soon. I’m just really happy my time has come, for any of you guys that are still waiting, I know it sucks but your time will come too and hopefully when you least expect it!

My work permit finally came in the mail today! :D 

I’m so happy now all I have to do is go to a social security office to apply for a SSN which i plan on doing some time this upcoming week.  As soon as it comes in I want to go to the DMV and get a state ID since I can’t get my license until I turn 19 which will be late this March.  I ‘m so excited for everything that is coming up in my life. Also this Tuesday Obama is supposed to speak about an immigration reform so hopefully he says something really good.  My family and I have conversations about how crazy it would be for all of us that are living in the states to take a trip to Colombia all together and surprise all our family living there since they havent seen most of us in like 10 years! That would be the best family reunion ever and I hoe it can be done soon.

USCIS received my DACA application back in September 14th, 2012. I had my fingerprint appointment on October 16th, 2012 and it is now January 13th, 2013 and I still have yet to get my work permit.  I don’t understand why it is taking so long, I should have gotten it by now and it’s starting to get really irritating that it is taking so long.  I’m really hoping that I have my license or permit by my birthday.  It sucks that I feel like my life is on a hold waiting for the permit while my other undocumented friends have it already :( literally everyday I go on the USCIS website to check on my application and everyday I see “Initial Review”, I just want it and feel the accomplishment that it is for all of us DREAMers.

OMG you guys are not going to believe what happened to me today. OK so I have a little Vera Bradley id wallet thingy and in it i had my bus fare card, my college id, my WORK PERMIT CARD, and a couple dollars and today without noticing I accidentally left it on the bus as I got off.  I went most of the day without noticing until I went to put my phone in the pocket that I normally but the wallet in and I saw that it wasn’t there so I panicked a little since I was in class.  So I texted my dad who was busy and couldn’t pick me up so my aunt ended picking me up.  I came home and called the bus lost and found number and the first two times that I called it didn’t work so I called again and had to click a different number and was transferred to the right place.  A lady answered and asked me what bus I had lost it on and my name and right when I told her my name she was like “yea we have it” which at that point I almost cried from relief and excitement.  She told me where to go pick it up so my aunt took me and I was able to pick it up and everything was in there, even the couple quarters I had in there.  That was literally the scariest moment of my life but I’m so glad some one turned it in to the lost and found or else i’d be SCREWED! My parents were pissed at me too when I told them I had lost it so good thing I found it.  Long story short DON’T CARRY YOUR WORK PERMIT CARD, unless you’re going in for a job. 

Yesterday

I went to the Social Security office to finally apply for my social and it was super simple.  When we got there I didn’t expected it to be so full, I waited about 30 minutes until I was called to the window and then I showed the lady my papers and it took her about 5 minutes to put me in the system and finish.  It was weird leaving tho, I don’t know why but right when I sat back in the car I felt less Colombian.  I guess the fact that I have been undocumented all this time there’s always been this Colombian feel in me and now that I have some sort of United States paper work I feel more American.  I wasn’t expecting to feel something like that but it just randomly happened as we left. I don’t ever want to lose my Colombian roots which is why I want to visit so BAD.  All I want are the rights I know I deserve.

Any one else feel something like this?

:D

GUYS!!! I have an interview on Monday for a scholarship! :D OMG I really hope I can get it.  I’m not sure how much they would give me but hey anything is better than nothing.  I hope its at least $1,000 because that would at least pay for one class this fall.  I’m excited and nervous because this will be my first interview.  I really hope I end up getting it! :)

Today I went to the mock graduation that was held in DC.  It was the first time i had done anything that has to do with the dream act and immigration.  It was an amazing experience.  I even spotted Angy from “Ask Angy” and I fangirled for a little bit even though I didnt get to talk to her or anything it reassured me that I’m not the only one out there.  It felt so good knowing that there were so many people in my situation and people were willing to travel from many different states to come together.  

I kinda hate how none of my friends know that I am undocumented. I want them to know but I just don’t want them to look at me in a different way and if I were to tell just my close friends I feel like they would tell their friends and they would tell their friends and sooner or later my whole school would know. I just don’t want something like that to happen. I don’t want anyone to think lower of what I am. It sucks that they don’t know how it is to be undocumented. All my friends think they have it hard because they have to fill out college apps, scholarship apps, and FASFA well I wish I could fill out as many scholarships apps as they can and FASFA. I dot even know what this rant is really about, I guess I just wanted to let you guys know that I hate being undocumented. I hate that my friends don’t know what I’m going through. I’m pretty sure I’m depressed because of all of this to and I’m just so unmotivated to do any college stuff just because I feel like even if I get into a couple schools I won’t be able to go because I can’t afford it and the government won’t help me out.

Social came in the mail today :) now all I have to do is wait until my birthday so I can go to the DMV to get my license which is in about a month and a half.  I’m not sure if I’ll go back to the restaurant I was working at now that I have a real social due to the fact that I want to focus on my school work but on the other hand I really want to be making some type of money to save and hopefully get a car in the near future. 

Lately it seems like the best option for me and my life is to go back to Colombia and start my life there. I’m so tired of constantly feeling down because of my status.  It;s like every time i get excited about something, something else comes up and by status plays a part on that.  and it definitely doesn’t make it better the fact that i have no one to talk to about my life. I want to be able to start my life but i feel so tied to my parents because i cant drive of anywhere and i cant just go out looking for an apartment or anything. Honestly the only reasons to why I wouldn’t want to go back to Colombia is because I wont be able to come back to the US for at least 10 years and because i don’t want to give up on my dreams but its just so hard to watch the rest of my classmates starting to do their own thing while i’m stuck just because i lack these 9 numbers.

After literally a year I finally got my Colombian cedula.  I could have probably gotten it a couple months ago but we were just to lazy to get it, plus it’s not like I can do  anything with it here so I wasn’t in much of a rush to get it.  Only reason i wanted it was because I wanted to see how it would look haha but I’m pretty glad I was finally able to get it even thought I look super serious in the picture.  Now the last type of paperwork that I have to get since turning 18 and getting DACA is my permit/license.  I plan on going  on friday the 29th, the day after my 19th birthday so that I would only have to hold my permit for about 2 month and then test out to get my license.  I’m pretty excited about that  , and now that i got my job back at the restaurant I was working at a while back I’m going to be using my paychecks to save for a car.  Even though i’m not working as much as I would like to right now because of school I know that once summer starts most of the time I plan to work and definitely save!

I love all the support I get on here from you guys, I know you guys don’t know who I am but in all honesty you guys know me more than some of the people I know in real life because I actually tell you guys about my issues and problems.  I know I haven’t been posting as much as I used to a couple months ago but I plan on posting more often, even if it’s just little things.  I also know that I don’t follow all of the blogs that follow me and if you are reading this, it isn’t because I don’t want to follow you but because I want to keep my dashboard with immigration related posts, so I hope you guys understand and I want to thank you for the support whether you’ve been following me since day one or you recently started following me :) I love you guys!

Updates

I cant remember the last time I have made a personal post on here. Sorry about that guys but here are some updates on my life :)

  • Today I sent in my deferred action paperwork.
  • I have now been in community college for about 3 weeks and I am pretty content with it. the only down side is that I have to take the bus there.
  • I got a job! :D
  • My two best friends hate me lol no but really.

and yea I think thats about it hopefully ill remind myself to write more personal post to keep you guys updated :)

Graduation!!!

I am finally graduating today!!! There are soo many different emotions going around in my head.  I am very excited but at the same time I am pretty nervous because I will be in the real world after tonight! With the deffered action a lot of the nervousness I had before friday have gone away.  I know that I could possibly get a job and a licence soon.  I think that for the post part I am ready to move on with my life and start a fun filled summer and then start community college on august 22nd. 

I couldnt have thought of a better way to end my last day of high school! Hearing these news about the new immigration laws from Obama is breath taking.  I’m sitting here in the living room waiting for him to actually make his speech.  I am so happy right now words cant even  describe it.  It sucks that I have like no friends to share these amazing news with but its ok because I do have my family. 

For the $1000 scholarship I told you guys I won I have to give a speech about myself in front of 100+ people this upcoming Monday. I am literally a nervous wreck right now! I dont really know who is coming to the ceremony but im pretty nervous.  Ive never come out about myself being undocumented and called myself a DREAMer in public.  Although im so nervous there is also excitement because I do want to come out but it has been really hard for me to and this is like a first step for me.  Hopefully all goes well on monday and I will update you guys on how it went. Wish me luck! :D