those days when i think too much.
i find that whenever i over-think things, it never leads to positive thoughts, only negative.
some days i’ll just wake up feeling useless & even begin to contemplate whether or not i should continue w/ another day of my nonexistent life or if i should stay in bed & senselessly cry myself to frequent naps, only to take breaks to pee.
throughout the day, i seem to have only pessimistic thoughts & everything that people say just sounds like incoherent rambling or something that seems to either make me feel even more inadequate, make life sound terrible & torturous, or just something that is, in some way, attacking me. on those days, i try to keep to myself in order to not draw any attention or pity from anyone. i also hate when people continuously ask whether or not i’m ohk & also if they say something fucking retarded like, “oh, are you just pms’ing ?” when i give an apathetic-sounding response. i don’t mean to, but do you rly have to be such an ass ?
i’m pretty sure that everybody has these kinds of days once in a while, & if anybody is actually reading this, i’d just like to say that i apologize for not being able to (have) help(ed) you in your current state, although i’m sure that everything can & will (& might already) be much better(, eventually). have a nice day!