You all want to love someone,
I don’t know why you choose me.
I’m a fucking roller coaster,
Highs and lows all over the place.
You say I’m the only one for you,
That you will never want anyone else,
And you can see us married in a little house.
I’m crazy and beautiful and you love that,
You say you know I get sad
But you say you will be the for me.
You like that about me.
But you are little boy,
Not even a taste of the world outside.
Once you find someone who adores you,
You will see me as a bullet dodged.
You don’t know my story, my life.
You don’t know nights spent screaming,
Tearing at my hair, hot tears and sliced skin.
You don’t know, anxiety and being terrified.
You don’t know what’s going on in my head,
When suddenly I want to die.
You speak beautiful words,
Fill my mind with promises,
But in a few weeks, I will be a mistake.
I guess that’s why they call me a heart breaker.
Because guess what? You aren’t the first.