It’s christmas day. A brief post. The day before yesterday it snowed in El Paso, and not just a little snow, but hella snow. It was wonderful. Daniel and I are doing really good, we had Christmas last night together. I get to see all of my family. And, last night my brother officially proposed to his girlfriend of six years. They are engaged. Woot woot! Needless to say I am having a great christmas. Hope you do too. 

rite. Wing.


So the national news: I watched it today and found that truly, George Bush is dancing around topless on the stage that is America, and the wealthy children of his womb are holding up their dollar bills for him to collect in his thong. All the while, the vast rest of the children (those not blindsided by the dollar) are busy actually holding up America for George to dance on. He holds a shotgun and shoots randomly across the room killing Americans huddled in a corner called Iraq. And the music plays on.

Keep it real. Thats what I say. Keep it real children. Fuck Bush.

i Can't deny you.


Something about the way things are going here is weird. I am with Daniel. I love Daniel. But we’ve fought so much since i’ve been here. Over stupid things too. I told him that I am not ready to get settled down at this point in my life, as in getting married or solidifying anything like that. He could’nt handle that. And now he is not sure if he is going to show up to LA after he graduates or not. I don’t know. He doesn’t know. This long distance thig is hard. I feel like its hurting us so much. I know he loves me, but I feel like I am hurting him too much. I don’t know. I love daniel with all my heart but i guess i don’t remember how to be in love. But otherwise am trying to make the best of Christmas time. I love christmas time.

Being home is strange and comforting both at the same time.

Yadda-yadda. I miss my friends. I have no money. There is a big ol zit on my cheek. And I am stll smiling. Why? Why you ask? Because I couldn’t possibly feel more alive.



I am not going to write very much, because I am at school and I have a TON of homework and studying and practice to do. Needless to say I am severely stressed out. Oh, and I think I might be getting sick, or already sick, but I can’t tell. I guess it would make sense. The drive out to LA I was sick as a dog, so I guess fate wants to even things out. 

I want to vomit out my every frustration.

Meanwhile, I will miss my friends out here while I am at home for a month. But I’ll see them again. kisses!

just burped…

Okay, well back to the studying. gotta get back into the swing of things. Wish me luck.