We are stuck in this society that has all these expectations of what beauty is and we feel pressured to look a certain way and start to build this hatred for ourselves if we don’t meet those expectations. We have gotten to the point where we are not comfortable with the one thing we are stuck with…ourselves. This picture captures who I am and who I am often ashamed to show due to these standards of beauty we’ve been brainwashed to believe, but really we should be creating our own standards. Embracing who you are is a great start. 

I only follow 21 blogs so re-blog if you post any of the following;

  • Fall Out Boy
  • All Time Low
  • Pierce The Veil
  • Bring Me The Horizon
  • Asking Alexandria 
  • Ghost Town
  • Crown The Empire
  • Motionless In White
  • Of Mice & Men
  • SayWeCanFly
  • Linkin Park
  • Sleeping With Sirens
  • You Me At Six
  • The Walking Dead
  • Veeoneeye
  • Danisnotonfire
  • AmazingPhil
  • MattG124
  • LukeIsNotSexy
  • Capndesdes
  • ahoynateo
  • deefizzy
  • Johnnie Guilbert
  • Patty Walters
  • Alex Ramos

Ill follow everyone that re-blogs

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hey tumblr friends!! i posted this new vlog last night and i’ll alsoooooo be posting a new main channel video tonight!! get ready 

as always i’ll follow some rebloggers ;)

don't read this.

for awhile i used to just talk about my thoughts online as a way of expression and they were often really negative, mostly towards myself. i realized that me being so sad/negative didn’t give a positive influence on my followers and just made them feel negatively so i decided to not really be open about my feelings anymore and only try to spread the happy moments of my life because my reasoning for starting youtube in the first place was to make others happy and distract you/myself from the craziness in life. i just want others to be happy and i’d hate to think i was doing the complete opposite to some. i think it’s been going well until tonight i realized a lot… i am not a hero / inspiration. i’m not a perfect person. i am not someone you should be looking up to or trying to get advice from…i barely have control of my own mind/life. i am nowhere in life where i want to be. i feel throughout the last few years i’ve just gotten uglier and unhealthier looking and because of that i’ve just become scared of making videos / showing how i actually look and have just became even more insecure with myself. i don’t live how i would actually want to because i let the negative thoughts in my mind hold me back. i realized tonight that i’ll probably be alone forever because in order to accept love from someone else you need to love yourself and i completely lack that, no matter how hard i try to change that. i live in fear. i always panic and think i’m unhealthy / dying so i always want to go to the doctors and get everything checked. i constantly do these healthy diets thinking it’ll make me look and feel better. nothing ever works. i eat irregularly and know i’m no where near healthy. i know being vegetarian is just making me stay unhealthy and miss out on nutrients i need but i’m brainwashed and feel i can’t do anything about it. i feel i’ll just look and feel terrible forever and it scares me…it scares me that i’m going to waste my entire life away because of the hatred i have for myself.

Hello everyone! The Twitter account @KyleToWarped has made a petition for YouTubers to go to Vans Warped Tour ‘15! They include: johnnieguilbert bryanstars cyrishere deefizzy and KYLE David Hall :) Please sign this petition, it only needs 1,000 and there’s a lot more of you on here so I know we can this! Help spread the word and follow the Twitter account to show support as well :) Now REBLOG AND SPREAD THE WORD LIKE CRAZY