I have no clue what is happening around here. Nobody tells me anything. Yeah, it could be worse but right now it sucks and I have the right to complain. It’s like I’m running around in the dark and I can’t see and I don’t know where I’m coming and I don’t know what is next. I hear gun shots and I can see tiny slivers of light but it is not enough. I’m losing this path that I had so carefully placed together before and I don’t know what to do.