crying-vodka-tears

Empty
Color my canvas red aggressively
Find me between your void
I can’t feel anymore
I remember waking up in the morning
knowing it had meaning..
Everything is temporary
Everything is nothing until subconscious sinks in
I want be adored
I want to be loved
what is love ?
I am gentle
I am violent
I want you to stay
I need space
I can make you love me
I can make you hate me
Bad girl w good intentions
I am beautiful
I am not your average queen
My crown is dusty & heavy
I won’t let it fall
I Know how powerful i can be
Scribbling in my journal
release the frustration
I can wait to burn it
Burn it to start fresh
I AM TRYINGGGGGGG!!!
I am TRYINGGG SOOOO HARDDDDDDDD
I am TRYING SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND MEE
why i feel this way
I am crying vodka tears
My eyeliner is smearing
My stance cricket
i was kissing w rim bottles again..
Chain smoking
i love how the smoke burns the back of my throat
My nights are getting longer
Rekindling my thoughts
walking alone alone
I want to go nowhere
my heart is getting colder
Do i have a tight grip on my past i am not aware of ?
Am i oblivious ?
Tell me things will get better.
Grab my throat tight
pull me close
lick my lips
tell me…
tell me how sweet i am..
Blow weed smoke in my mouth
i want to inhale you
My wings never hit the floor
You loved how my eyes reminded you of storms
I didnt scare you away..
If you take my hand lead me to the shadows
Rough & soft
Whisper how i make you feel
Let me sit on your lap and confess my truths
while you cut my panties with your knife
I want to tangle our troubles
so i dont feel alone..