He came back. Apparently he thought that when I said I was done with my mental illness it meant him too, no, I meant I was done with all the pain I feel when I have an episode or start feeling blue. I drew a nice picture to show him how much I appreciate him. It may sound stupid to you guys but I’m done with pushing Dean away and making him feel bad for being there when all he is trying to do is help me. I don’t care anymore if I sound crazy talking to him or about him. He’s been my friend and have changed through the years as I have. First being a nightmare, to a… Rabbit thing to be kinder. Then Spider-Man to be the hero I looked up to, then Deadpool when I had depression through the roof so he could relate to me. Then Dean Martin because I need someone I look up to but at the same time someone who can be my better self. Like… My good thought process. He’s not here to hurt me… I don’t think it labels me as schizophrenia but I am still needing an evaluation. Not because of him, but I need a steady person to talk to and maybe medication to help ease the pain and make me feel better. I hate to admit it, but I am not a happy camper all the time. Something, anything to help. Dean is one of the ways but I need something to perk me up for other people so I am not snapping all the time.
Do you guys have any tips for people who identify as agender for dealing with dysphoria? Lately people have been telling me my gender doesn't exist, and it has taken its toll. Thanks in advance. <3