I love London ☺️ made the 4:30 train back and currently munching on my trusty nature valley goodness 🙏
Today brought it all home. I need energy - truly need it, to get through this next year of university I need health.
Because getting through for me is not limping through, it is not the illusory life and “freedom” that sacrifices nourishment. Meal. Snack. Meal. Snack. That is my structure for the foreseeable future; an unbreakable structure.
I enjoyed a glass of wine with the girls just before leaving, but this year I want to experiment with cocktails and I will just hve to brave trial and error with diabetes! I am finding a certain level of “certainty” right now is a good thing; suddenly plunging into unknown carbs and having loos sugar fluctuations won’t do my long term mindset any good.
But I am still quite buzzing from lunch - I ordered pizza ☺️ I ate every last crumb; I very nearly left a bit of the crust, then impulsively just put it in my mouth and got it down because all these little appeasements only add up to anorexia staying in control - and I don’t want that. I want control. I want freedom.
I’m feeling more hopeful than I have in a long time; insulin anxieties are still here, but they are better then they’ve been in so long. I can do this. I can.

The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.
I love the idea of mornings

I love the idea of waking up next to someone you care about and laying in bed with them as the sun comes up and seeing the world wake up and then drinking tea or coffee and talking about the day ahead of you and I also like the idea of mornings alone when no one else is awake and you can just think and be so alone yet so content at the same time. Mornings are lovely.

Why Branding Burns Out Creativity


by Erik van Rheenen

Four Year Strong sprung a corker of a surprise on the pop-punk community by announcing both the flawlessly follicled Worcester outfit’s deal with Pure Noise Records and return to the recorded music fray with the Go Down in History EP — with a marathon stint on the Vans Warped Tour to match. Fans heralded the summer of 2014 as a kind of redux version of 2009. The “Easycore Revival” banner was unfurled. The band was back to chugging out hardcore-tinged pop-punk, the tracklist boasting the same kind of silly movie-referencing song titles that were part of Rise Or Die Trying and Enemy of the World’s none-too-serious charm. Listeners rediagnosed their malaise for 2011’s In Some Way, Shape, or Form and its grungy, alternative rock leanings as three year’s worth of selective amnesia. It’s like the album AbsolutePunk reviewer and occasional PropertyOfZack contributor Thomas Nassiff called (albeit fairly), “ a beast of a heavy, radio-y rock group” buoyed by a veering, Rise Against-ish turn towards the alternative charts and an “’okay’ overall performance” never happened. Easycore is back, baby!
 If Nassiff, an incredibly savvy writer with his finger pretty firmly on the pulse of the vein of pop-punk popularity, thought In Some Way, Shape, or Form was the first step towards Four Year Strong’s ascension to radio airplay and kicking down the door of being an amphitheater playing, name-brand rock band, well, why the hell isn’t Go Down in History the same kind of mature alt rock as its forerunner? I’ll take the blame and freely admit I spurned ISWSOF as the moody older brother to RODT and EOTW, an album that stands in the corner with its arms crossed, biting the inside of its cheeks as its two more famous, playful younger brothers run amok and get into all kinds of juvenile antics. I missed the rabble-rousing sing-alongs and breakdowns and lyrics that just felt right finger pointing to. Whether I was pointing them at Alan Day and Dan O’Connor in concert, or at the ceiling of my car didn’t matter. Those records were fun, and ISWSOF was dour, straight-faced, and serious.

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A Look Inside Weatherbox Frontman's Tour Meltdown From Brian Warren Himself


Weatherbox dropped off of their summer tour with Dikembe at the start of August due to a medical emergency. Many fans have expressed concern and curiosity over details, and frontman Brian Warren took it upon himself to write a final Road Blog for PropertyOfZack to clue everyone in on what he has been experiencing and working through. 

Head below to get clued in on Brian’s meltdown due to a lack of medication, a foray into drugs, and a hopeful restart.

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Let me first start off by apologizing to everyone in the city of Salt and on for not being able to play those shows. Despite the meltdown that originally occurred behind/under/atop the merch table in Lawrence on July 29th, we were really trying to keep the train on the tracks. I/we have absolutely no idea how I/we played those shows in Lawrence and Denver.  The delusion was intense and I slept maybe 5 hours in those last 6 or 7 days.  These dudes are my brothers and did an amazing job trying to keep everything together as I descended into a spiral of insomnia, paranoia and Shane-shaming.  Huge thanks to them for eventually delivering me safely into a facility where I could stabilize: I owe you. Big time.

 If you been tuned into these tour reports, I know AJ has let most of you fair readers know what was happening up until Denver. Up until our day off after the St. Louis show, the tour had been going great. All the shows were well attended and Weatherbox was having our best tour since the glory days of American Art. Huge thanks to all the fans who have come out to these shows and showed their support, hopefully we played as you expected/hoped we would.

 But then I took the drug…

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POZ Discussion: Most Anticipated September Releases


September is nearly here, and we’re continuing 2014 with a jam-packed month of releases that PropertyOfZack team members couldn’t be more stoked to hear. In today’s new Discussion, we’re highlighting our personal Most Anticipated September Releases. Check out our list below and feel free to reblog with what you’re looking forward to as well!


Tiny Moving Parts - Pleasant Living (09/09)
It’s been very fun watching Tiny Moving Parts grow over the past year and a half. I use fun because that’s the adjective that pops into my head when I think about the band. Yes, their lyrics are often sad and their guitars are more than often twinkly, but in spirit, I know three fun dudes are coming up with great songs.

Tours with Modern Baseball and The Front Bottoms, and soon Dads, sort of shape the band in a perfect mold between heavy hitting songs, but the kind that you want to make you happy, not sad.

I think I just created a new kind of emo. - Zack Zarrillo


The American Scene - Haze (09/09)
It’s been two years since The American Scene released the band’s sophomore album and I, for one, have been eagerly awaiting a follow up to the slow burning Safe For Now. And with fall around the corner, the time is right for a new release from the indie rockers: the band’s hazy tones and piercing vocals are the perfect pairing for those chilly nights. Haze is due out on September 9, and a number of tracks have already been released, including “Nails of Love,” “Royal Blue,” and “4th and Broadway.” Whereas the last album was beautifully deliberate and unhurried, these new tracks feature sweeping hooks and an invigorating haste. This is a band that I have long believed deserved far more attention than they’ve gotten, and I think they’re finally poised to make that happen. - Becky Kovach

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