Note: Here is chapter 7! Please please tell me your
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(I do not own these character)
As reality sinks in, I
see Jude frantically leaving the locker room, entirely confused. I groan aloud
and sit down on the bench nearest me, burying my face in the palms of my hands.
I can’t do this again…
“What the hell were
you doing with that boy?! I forbade you to see him Connor!” Adam yelled
punching Connor across the face.
I let out a tiny whimper
at the pain and landed on the ﬂoor beside the bedside.
“Stevens! Why the
hell are you still here?! Get to class!!”
I suddenly am knocked
back to my senses by coach who was yelling at me to get to class. I get up
quickly, leaving the locker room in a rush. I can’t let this happen again,
especially not with him, I thought as I left the locker room.
I rush to my next class
unaware of my surroundings. In a rush of things, I accidentally run into someone.
It was Taylor, “watch where you are going you numb skull… Jude?”
Sorry,” I say leaving her there, brushing past her to get to class.)
I kept my distance from
everyone for the rest of the day because I still couldn’t process what happened
in the locker room. At lunch, I eat in momma’s oﬃce
because I just can’t deal with people right now. I don’t know why I’m plagued with
these feelings, but I just need time to ﬁnd the answers.
After school there’s baseball
practice and it was Connor’s ﬁrst day back since that not so entirely
unfortunate incident. I couldn’t have been dreading it more than I actually
was. Today was pitching practice and I was an utter disgrace. I pitched so
wrong, that it made me question my abilities. The whole team was making fun of
me for not being at the top of my game. The only one that didn’t comment on it
was Connor, who was keeping rather quiet. Coach even complained on my lack of
skill today. I felt embarrassed, but I couldn’t concentrate on anything.
When I get home, I greet
everyone brieﬂy and head to my room claiming I have homework to do. They didn’t
notice my lie because I was quick about it. I wearily walk into my room, throw
my backpack by the nightstand and fall on my bed, grunting and putting both my
hands on top of my head.
“What the hell
happened today?” I ask myself
“Why am I having
such confusing feelings about that jerk!?” I continue.
As I’m thinking, my phone
rings. It was a text from Taylor.
What happened to you at school today? You were really distant and why didn’t
you sit at lunch with us?
Oh I was eating with momma, just something I just wanted to spend some time
with her. Nothing’s wrong.
You sure you’re ok?
Yea, I’ll talk to you later.
I was completely lying to
her, but I didn’t want to tell anyone about this because I wasn’t even sure of
my own emotions at the moment. I decide to take a nap until dinner because I
didn’t want to think any of this right now.
At dinner, everyone was
in deep conversation with each other except me, I kept to myself. I only spoke
when asked directly. I ate fast and excused myself from the table after eating.
Thankfully, nobody took notice of my silence during dinner. I went back to my
room and did my homework, ﬁnally putting aside the various emotions I felt for
The next 3 days, I
completely ignore Connor and keep my distance from everyone else. Taylor was
always suspicious of my actions, I could see it in her eyes, but didn’t say anything.
Cecelia didn’t notice anything because she was so infatuated with Connor.
On Friday, Connor ﬁnally
says something to me as I’m walking to my car after school.
He calls out.
I pretend not to hear him
and start walking faster towards my blue Honda Civic. He runs up in front of
“Jude we have to
talk about this, please,” he says in a pleading voice.
“We don’t have to
talk about anything,” I say, “please get out of my way.”
Cecilia squealed from behind. I turn around and see her running up to us. She
comes and wraps her arm around Connor’s, “Hey, I’ve been looking for
She turns and nods at me,
then she pulls Connor the other way. I go to my car and I drive oﬀ fairly angry. I see them in the rear view mirror,
arms still locked. I couldn’t help but feeling jealous again. “What’s
wrong with me?” I say loudly, slamming the steering wheel.
I go home and immediately
go to my room once more. Mom and momma are preparing for their date night and Mariana
still isn’t home from work. I lay on my bed and think about Connor and why I’m
so confused about him. I also contemplate on why I get jealous of with Cecilia
around. I think that it might be possible that I have a crush on Connor, I know
I’ve never deﬁned my sexuality, but it never dawned on me that I’d have a crush
on a guy. I haven’t been interested in anybody so I wouldn’t know how it would
feel to have romantic feelings for another person. This feeling I have is new,
but how can I like someone this arrogant.
As I am going through my
thoughts, Mariana walks in and sits next to me. I guess she just got home from
“Judicorn talk to
me, you’ve been distant all week from us. You think we haven’t noticed? We
have. I’m worried about you, tell me what’s up?” She says
I say awkwardly not really knowing what to do.
“It sure seems like
something,” she says crossing her arms.
“Look Mari, I’m just
confused about something. When I ﬁnd out, I promise I’ll tell you, but until
then, I need to ﬁgure things out myself,” I say taking a deep breath.
“Ok Judicorn, let me
know when you’re ready to open up,” she sighs getting up and leaving. As
she leaves, I decide to get out a pen and paper and write my thoughts on it.
I don’t know my feelings for you, nor do I understand
why they are there. I can’t help but feel something for you, I just don’t know
what it is. Every time I see you or anytime you are close, my heart beats
faster. You make me angry, frustrated, but the last few weeks, I’ve gotten to
know who you are and you aren’t half bad. When you tried to kiss me yesterday,
my heart skipped a beat and I think I wanted it to happen. I think I could see
that you wanted it to happen as well because I could see it in your eyes. I’m not
confused about how I feel anymore. I have a small crush on you Connor Stevens,
but I do not know what to do about it. You are the first person I have ever had
a crush on, so it is difficult to figure out what to do about it. I just know
that I don’t want to ruin this potential friendship, but I also know that want
to be with you.
After writing it, I
folded the paper and put it in my bottom drawer. I felt much more relaxed about
it now, but still confused on what to do about it, but I will worry about it Monday,
when I have to see him.
It was Saturday morning
and I had to wake up early so I could cover Mari’s shift at the coﬀee shop. I go in and start the cappuccino machine for
the day. I also started brewing the diﬀerent
types of coﬀee. It wasn’t a big rush since it was a Saturday
morning, but people did keep coming in. At about 9 a.m., I get ready to take a
break because it’s practically empty. Right when I get out to sit at front, the
door rings, meaning someone walked in.
“Hello, how may I
help…” I say turning around realizing that it was Connor.
My heart starts to beat
faster upon seeing him and once again I stand in utter confusion. Do I accept
the kiss that was supposed to happen? Or do I deny it? I want be his friend
because he’s actually a person that likes me for who I am.
He is also shocked to see
me, but walks up to me. “Hey,” he says coming up to me.
“What are you doing
here?” I ask without empathy, “I always come here Saturday’s,”
he replies calmly, “but I’ve never seen you work here.”
“I’m covering for my
sister,” I reply, returning back around the counter to get his order.
“What would you
like?” I ask him.
“A black coﬀee and a chance to talk to you,” he smirks.
I nod and get him his coﬀee.
When we sit down at a
table he starts the conversation.
“So about the other
day, that was an impulsive moment and it wasn’t supposed to happen. I’m sorry
for that. I still want to be your friend because you are an interesting person,”
He says in one ﬂuent phrase.
“Oh,” I reply,
my heart dropping because I didn’t want to ignore what happened, “yea, I
totally get what you mean. Yea we can become friends,” I say right after
like an automated message.
I fake a smile to him. I
know I should have said something more, but I just couldn’t force myself to do
then?” He says putting his hands forward.
nod and shake his hand.
“You know, this
doesn’t mean I’m not after your title, because I am,” he said laughing.
“Oh my god! Will you
get over that?!” I say laughing back.
I feel like I should have
said something more to him, admit to him that I have a crush on him, but I
can’t get myself to do it because I don’t want to push him away. There was
something about him that made me want to be his friend.
We talk for a while about
baseball and video games before he leaves. He asked me to come over to play his
new video game tomorrow. I agreed because I wanted to spend more time with him.
The next day at his
house, we played his new video game and of course I won. I was always good at
video games and was a quick learner at new ones too. We had fun together and
bonded pretty quickly over the next few weeks.
It was now Friday of
December, right before school was out for winter break. Connor and I were
really close friends now. We had found out a lot about each other over the last
few months and it surprised us at how many things we have in common. We pretty
much hung out every day and genuinely enjoyed each other companies. Baseball
was kept to a diﬀerent degree. We avoided bringing that into our
personal lives. As we grew closer, my crush on him also grew, but I kept it
hidden because I didn’t want to lose what we had. As I was sitting in last
period, right before school got out for break, I couldn’t help but reminisce
about the past.
It was October, Connor
and I had gotten to know each other relatively well. Connor invited me to go
ﬁshing with him because he loved it. Even though I knew nothing about ﬁshing, I
accepted his invitation because I couldn’t say no to him. It was a Saturday afternoon
and Connor picked me up. We went to the lake in his truck. As we drove to the
lake, he excitedly told me the various techniques he used to ﬁsh and the
variety of ﬁsh he’s seen and caught. I just nod along because his whole face
lights up when he’s happy and that makes me happy.
“You’ve never gone
ﬁshing have you?” He said after a while.
“It’s ok I’ll teach
you! Back in Texas this was the one thing my dad taught me that was actually
useful,” he said.
Connor always got touchy
on the subject of his dad and Texas. Every time I asked, he would change the
“Well let’s hope I
can hold the damn rod,”
I say in seriousness as
We get to the lake and
start to ﬁsh. As we get all the things out of the car, Connor teaches me how to
hold the rod, put on the bait and reel the ﬁsh in when they get caught. He was
very good at it, he caught 3 ﬁsh in a matter of 10 minutes. I could barely get
the ﬁshing line to go in the water. By the time we were done, Connor had caught
15 ﬁsh, I had caught absolutely none. However, I had cuts from ﬂinging the hook
in every possible direction. Connor was also my victim, along with some trees.
After about 2 hours of ﬁshing, we left for home. Connor was going to stay over
since his aunt was away for the weekend.
When we got home, moms
had already started preparing a feast.
“Wow looks like you
two caught a lot!” Mom said in amazement looking over the ﬁsh Connor
“It was actually all
me, mom. You should have seen me, I’m like a total pro!” I say
sarcastically, completely lying.
“HAHA you wish it
was all you, as I recall the only thing you caught was a couple of cuts for us,”
Connor said as I laughed. His presence was becoming a larger part of my life.
We had lunch and hung out
the whole day watching movies and playing video games, he even slept over. It
was a nice weekend
I was really close to
Connor and I always had Taylor. Cecelia on the other hand didn’t seem to like
me, I didn’t know why though. She always hung around Connor, even Taylor
started despising her.
Today, I had to go home
and go with Mariana to her dance audition so she wouldn’t be so nervous. After the
bell rang for last period to end, I went to the restroom before going home.
Taylor had already left so I would have to walk to my car alone. After using
the restroom, I walk out to my car. I stop dead in my tracks because right
before me, I see Connor and Cecelia by his car. He has his hands on her waist
and she has her hands around his neck. They were kissing each other right in
the parking lot. As I watch them, my heart couldn’t help but shatter into what
felt like a million pieces
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