Cut Me Farther Than I’ve Ever Been
“But why does she beat him up!?”
This is the question that I keep seeing surface regarding the fight scene in the video between Tyler and Jenna and there are three key lyrics in Tear In My Heart that we need to refer to in order to answer this question:
“My heart is my armor.”
“Sometimes, you gotta bleed to know that you’re alive and have a soul.”
“She’s the tear in my heart.”
Through his previous lyrics in the whole t|o|p catalog of songs, we can gather that Tyler is someone who naturally tends to put up defenses, walls, masks, and ambiguity when it comes to revealing his real self and emotions. He constantly is surrounding himself with this layer of armor to not let anyone get too close. To get close is to be vulnerable to pain. The only problem with the wearing of constant armor, is that you run the risk of feeling nothing at all.
Tyler sings, “My heart is my armor.” This shows the depth of his defenses. His very core, the most vital and vulnerable part of himself, he has turned into an impenetrable fortress. Yet, somehow, Jenna got past all of these shields, and has become “the tear in (Tyler’s) heart.” I think this explains the look of shock that Tyler has right before Jenna starts to attack him in the video. He was shocked that she got that far past his carefully constructed defenses. He wasn’t expecting anyone to have the power to do that. She “cut [him] farther than [he’s] ever been.”
Once she reached that level—that is, having the ability to have access to the most vulnerable part of his true self—the “tear” is the catalyst for dismantling every line of defense he has toward her. He is powerless to her love, perseverance, and desire to get to know the real him. The fight is nothing more than a highly visual metaphor for the fact that she is battling through his walls and allowing him to be that vulnerable to someone for once in his life. As mentioned before–vulnerability is painful and at times humiliating—so the fight is representative of just how helpless a surrender to another person can feel. However, in the process of making yourself vulnerable–you can truly connect and the result is one of feeling truly alive and aware of having a soul. You are no longer a non-feeling, emotionless, person behind a wall of protective armor.
Jenna is the one to make him finally bleed–the one to make him feel human and to take him “higher than [he’s] ever been.”