I’m morbidly depressed, suicidal and no one gives a fuck at all. If it was cancer I’d be a hero and a “survivor”, but since it’s invisible mental problems no one cares. No medication will touch it, the only thing that cauterizes it temporarily is the black hole of drug and alcohol abyss.
All the people I want to talk to are gone, the only ones who remain don’t give a fuck or are in denial that I’m almost dead. Stop talking about it and do it. Fuck this. Life will never get better, and that’s the truth. No medication can touch it. The pain lasts until the end of time and there’s no peace. I’m so depressed and lonely. Everyone I want to talk to is gone forever. I don’t see any way out of this besides eternal silence. Wish I had a shorter gun. Bash my head in with concrete blocks and burn my guts out with acid. Nothing I’ve ever done has mattered one bit.