There comes a point when you just stop and say. No more. No more lies. No more excuses. No more bullshit. I am a fucking addict. I snort pills. A lot. At least 4 or 5 times a day everyday. I am tired of it at first it was just a way to get me happy and help me forget about my problems for a little whilee but it didn’t last long so I started doing more and more. Now here I am it’s been 3 1/2 almost 4 years I have messed up two relationships and messed up two more before they even got started I didn’t care I just wanted to get high and be left alone I’ve hurt a lot of people that cared for me but I just pushed them away and acted like an asshole for no reason. I’m tired of this. It isn’t going to control me anymore I am 3 days clean and I am planning on many more days.