Hang in there. Don’t give up your dreams and your hopes. You are not a bad musician for not being able to take lessons b/c your parents don’t support you. Go on, try out for that conservatory you really want to go to! Go on, audition for that one group you really want to be part of! Continue doing what you love, no matter what your parents want you to do. It’s YOUR DREAM. It’s YOUR LIFE. Not theirs. You weren’t put on this earth to do what your parents want you to do–you must do what you want to do. So yes, go for it! You are no lesser of a musician than those fortunate enough to be able to have lessons. Take pride in what you do, don’t let ANYONE stop you. You are a musician. That’s who you are.