Today was my first day never going back to Usdan.
Today, I woke up at 10:30 and I thought I missed my bus for camp. Then, I had the saddest realization, that I am not going back and that I will never return as a camper. It makes me so upset and sad inside. I love it so much. I started going there as a 13 year old with glasses and braces. I also didn’t wear makeup for my show (wtf was I thinking?) I was made fun of in middle school, and wanted a place that I could make new friends. I remember walking into the TMNK studio for the first time and seeing AJ and MK sing their audition songs. I was so amazed. I admired them so much. They were so pretty and so talented, (and still are!) everything that I wanted to grow up to be. (Hi AJ, and MK if you’re reading this!). I remember hug attacking one of my dearest friends Katie on the first day. I remember having the biggest crush on a kid in my cast, I loved him and got my first heart broken. I remember looking up to the Me cast so much. I thought they were the coolest people. I loved that I had a 16 year old friend that I could talk to about the newest episodes of Wizards of Waverly Place (Hi Rach) :) Then the Spelling Bee year was the best. Everyone was a pure family. It was so wonderful. I loved it so much. Then, Urinetown wasn’t my favorite, but I did become close with a few people and I’m so lucky I did. I miss Usdan with all my heart, and no matter how many years go by, it will forever be with me. Now, I’m at the age where I met my TMNK friends, without braces and I still wear glasses. I now put on makeup and straighten/curl my hair for every show I do. I have learned to accept myself more and know that people love me and support me. “And because I have known you, my life will never be quite the same…may your spirit live through me.”