She was desperate and she was choosy at the same time and, in a way, beautiful, but she didn’t have quite enough going for her to become what she imagined herself to be.
—  Charles Bukowski, Factotum


This render comes with story time!

My favorite thing about school starting up is we always get these cocky little assholes at Master’s Dojo who want to be taught because they want to be seen as badass, and as one of the senior students I’m one of those who - in the case of Master being busy - gets to evaluate them, both in skill and in attitude since Master is pretty choosy about who he’ll accept. I don’t spend as much time there as I’d like anymore, since I work, but today I was off so I spent a large chunk of time there.

Today! We got this arrogant motherfucker who got pissed that Master was too busy to eval him personally, who’d come in there reeking of bodyspray and got insulted because there was only myself and one other senior student present to greet him and stars forbid he had to wait until the two of us were done sparring. He started bragging about he’d learned all these different things from watching youtube fights and how he could kick both our asses and MAKE Master come eval him. We asked him to give us a bit to cool down, I mean come on! We’d just finished. He ignored that and kept at it.

So! We asked him to choose who evaluated him first then while we resettled the mats and cleaned up the area. I guess he saw me limp? He called out me as “the cripple” to eval him. …Of the two of us that were there. I’m the more senior student. What’s more, Master is family so I get to learn outside of the Dojo too.

I kicked his ass. Also kicked him in the chest, hence the render whooops. (An amusing note, the other senior student yelled “THIS IS MASTER’S DOJO” when I kicked the asshole in the chest)

….The point of this story is pls don’t assume that just because the Ice is chubby and disabled that she’s an easy person to beat. And also pls don’t, yanno, badger the Ice to eval you when she’s coming off a post spar high with someone on a similar skill level to her because it’s not going to go well and I’m not sorry.

Also that I think this is the most dynamic render I’ve done with people in it and I’m proud as fuck of that okay.

Tagged by expatriots-wife~


Rule 1: Always post the rules.

Rule 2: Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked, and write 11 new ones.

Rule 3: Tag 11 people & link them to the post.

Rule 4: Actually tell them you tagged them.


1. If you do art, what’s your favorite medium? If you do digital art, what’s your favorite program?

I have enjoyed several mediums including Printmaking, Painting, and Graphic Design. However I am obviously far more skilled with traditional medium rather than digital unfortunately. It’s part of why I don’t post a lot of my work.

2. Do you cosplay? How many cosplays do you have? Which one gets worn the most? How many are you working on at any given time? Are there like a thousand that you want to do, or are you very choosy? Do you tend to cosplay a ton of characters from one thing, or one character from a ton of things?

I only have one cosplay, one that me and my aunt made when she was teaching me how to sew back in high school. It was Suiseiseki from Rozen Maiden, although because I’m super poor I couldn’t afford a decent wig so most people mistook me as Hungary from Hetalia but I rolled with it. I won a cosplay competition at my university with it. o v o


I wish I had the time, patience, money, and body to cosplay more because a few I’d really like to do are Midna, Skull Kid, maybe Ja’far, and a couple more. But I’m so hard on myself because of my body that I’m too scared to…

3. Favorite book

My favorite book in high school was Of Two Minds by Carol Matas. I also enjoy and and all biology/animal encyclopedias.

4. Favorite spoken language? Have you ever taken a language? Do you speak more than one language?

I can write and understand Spanish fluently, but I’m still a little challenged when it comes to speaking it myself. That’s one of the biggest problems with a lot of Spanish classes/programs in the United States unfortunately. I’d like to spend some time abroad in Spain to hone my skills one day.

5. How are you at public speaking?

Absolutely horrible. I stutter and fiddle with my clothes. 

6. Do you carry something to write with and write on everywhere?

At work I always carry a little notepad to write/draw on.

7. What’s the funniest thing you remember Googling, off the top of your head?

its a tie between why do cats lay on paper and why do cockatoos dance.

8. How often do you get tagged in tumblr memes? How often do you tag other people?

Not very often. So not very often do I tag people.

9. Favorite style of games


10. Character you’re currently flailing over the most

Still flailing over Ja’far a bit, but Uta and Yomo  from Tokyo Ghoul are starting to push their way in too fhsfonsadfssauid

And my 11 questions

  1. Do you like Pokemon? Which is your favorite? Your favorite generation?
  2. How do you deal with anxiety or worry?
  3. What is your first memory? (as in the first thing you can recall from your childhood.)
  4. What’s something about Tumblr that irritates you?
  5. What’s one series/fandom you will always be apart of?
  6. Favorite food?
  7. What’s your vice?
  8. How long have you been on Tumblr?
  9. Do you play video games? Which one is your favorite? (Or favorite series?)
  10. Would you consider yourself a germaphobe?
  11. Do you have some sort of good luck charm, whether it be a physical thing or a certain action/ritual?

I tag blackbackedjackal, the-moonlit-shadow, tinnypants, anacardii, rinmatsuokaawesomeeatsyou, mastersoftheslutverse, wundereyes, luna-arsenica, heathersaur, gilnokoibito :U

Rules: Answer the questions and tag at least 10 people.

Name: Bernadette

Nickname: Berna (bc everyone i know are too lazy to say my whole name lol)

Birthday: August 16

Gender: Female

Sexuality: as straight as it gets (but i’m really choosy whenever my friends ask me what kind of girl i’d like if i were a guy, i mean i literally answer them with the specific attitudes and proportions i want in a girl but when they i ask me what kind of guys i like i just tell them ‘yixing’ loloolol)

Height: 5’1 ??? or 4’9 ????? i dont rememeber but im a mushroom okay DDD:

What time and date is it there: August 27, 2014 12:10pm

Average hours of sleep: what is this ‘sleep you are talking about??? lol 5 hours at most c:


First word to come to mind: Russia (idk  man the mug i was drinking from is printed on it don’t look at me like that)

Last thing I said to my family: ‘if i die early, i want my coffin painted like sehun’s hair and i want yifan’s drawing on their invitation cards for my mourning’ I AM SERIOUS I LITERALLY SAID THAT TO THEM DO THEY EVEN GIVE OUT INVITATIONS FOR MOURNINGS???LOL

One place that makes me happy and why: my room.

How many blankets do I sleep under: ONE. EVEN IF THE NIGHT IS AS COLD YOUR EYES.

Favourite beverage: strawberry milkshake

I was tagged by: luhans-deer

I tag: dyominance, xingrens, yixngmetosleep, mainexing, yixingofficial

State of the Animu: Summer 2014


This has been a weird, weird anime season.  I’ve had to be choosy with the shows that I watch and to my surprise, my favorites aren’t the ones I expected to love the most.  So here are a few comments on what I’m watching - and if you’re a Tokyo Ghoul or a Kuroshitsuji fan, then you’ll be happy about what I have to say.

The Zankyou no Terror and Space Dandy folks might want to cover their eyes, though. (Don’t worry.  I’m not here to bag on Lisa.)

Let’s get to it.  Read the blog here.

The Oxford English Dictionary accepts both pronunciations. They are wrong. It is a soft ‘G,’ pronounced ‘jif.’ End of story.
—  Steve Wilhite, the creator of the GIF, chiming in on the pronunciation of the word. (As everyone knows, choosy memes choose “jif.”) Wilhite, a former CompuServe employee, created the format in 1987 and is to receive an award for his creation tonight