This past week, I had my vital signs check off on Tuesday in my HA lab. I passed!!! Go me, lol! I was super nervous, even though I had no reason to be because this check off was a pass only - I’d do the check off until I passed it - so, there was no pressure of it being a pass or fail, but that message never got to my heart. I had a bad case of tachycardia, and tried to calm myself down, but couldn’t. I knew it would happen. I felt calm and ready, but for whatever reason, my heart always beats so fast when I get anxious or have an evaluation. That’s just me, and it only lasts for about a minute, if that. I just happened to occur while my pulse was being taken.
Anyway, lectures and labs were good this week. Nothing too crazy happened. I was only out in the community on Thursday because Friday (today) I was at the CON of my CNC sim lab, and that was a lot of fun.
Now, it’s Friday night, and I’ve been having a mental battle with myself between sitting down and focusing on studying for my first exam on Monday (for essentials) or watching TV to numb my brain and not think about the fact that I have my exam on Monday. Obviously, I know that studying is better, but I’m great at procrastination ;) In all seriousness though, I’ve already done a lot of studying, and I’m about 3/4 done with all of my note cards to study off of. So, I’m in a good place with my studying to be able to take the evening off and let my mind shut down a bit.
I’ll most likely stay up a little late tonight to finish my flash cards, and then spend all day tomorrow studying them, and meet with my friends to study too. On Sunday, I’m working for a short 3 hour shift at 7am, and then at 2pm I have a baby shower to go to, and I’ll only stay for about an hour or so and get back to studying.
It never gets easier; you just get stronger.