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Double fisting. #619 #SD #sandiego #cali #calilife #california #socal #igerssandiego #thisissandiego #discoversd #westcoast #urban #balboapark #shades #sunglasses #hats #ftm #trans #transguys #transman #queer #transbeard #beards #transandinked #RVCA #godonawheel #charliewarhol by charliewarhol http://ift.tt/1HS7Y4y

Nine years ago today I started testosterone. In my 30 years on this earth, I have embodied many genders. I have lived two thirds of my life as female and a third as male. I graduated from high school as a girl and from college as a guy; those five years were the most difficult yet joyous and rewarding of my life.

I was afraid to take this step toward medical transition; afraid I would lose everyone I loved, afraid of what I would look like, afraid of what people would say and what a freak they would think I am. I thought I would have to move far away and never talk to my parents, extended family, or friends again. I am happy to say I was very wrong.

It has taken a lot of time, patience, and communication, but for the most part I didn’t lose anyone I love, and the people I did lose weren’t real friends in the first place. Nothing has turned out like I thought it would when I first started transitioning; instead of being shunned and vilified by people from my past, I have been received lovingly.

For 20 years, I was ashamed of how I felt and stuffed down what I thought was a terrible secret, only to be met with open arms and discover affirmation, validation, and love. So, thank you to everyone who has been there. It means a lot.

After going through all of this – changing my name, my body, my presence in this world and the way I navigate it, I can just say that I feel really fucking human. And I know what it means to be alive.

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Top Surgery Strip Down ft. Ryan Cassata

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What Real Men Do

This is my latest video on YouTube - exploring masculinity and gender stereotypes.

Acceptance is the answer. #619 #SD #sandiego #cali #calilife #california #socal #igerssandiego #thisissandiego #discoversd #westcoast #ftm #trans #transguys #transman #queer #transbeard #beards #boyswithglasses #battlescars #beardsandbattlescars #acceptanceistheanswer #transandinked #tattoos #ink #charlesasher #godonawheel #charliewarhol (at the lab - SD)

Burrito as big as his head! @freewater25 #619 #SD #sandiego #cali #calilife #california #socal #igerssandiego #thisissandiego #discoversd #westcoast #lakemurray #sunglasses #shades #lumbersexual #californiaburrito #burrito #ftm #trans #transguys #transman #queer #transbeard #beards #transandinked #food #foodie #foodporn #yummy #noms #delicious #freewater25films #godonawheel #charliewarhol (at Lake Murray Regional Park)

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Riding nerdy. #619 #SD #sandiego #cali #calilife #california #socal #igerssandiego #thisissandiego #discoversd #westcoast #northpark #nerd #nerdy #lol #funny #ftm #trans #transguys #transman #queer #transbeard #beards #boyswithglasses #urban #skate #skateboard #skateboarding #goskate #skateeveryday #skateSD #skategodonawheel #promotethestoke #charlesasher #godonawheel #video #charliewarhol (at Urban Street Angels)

Our boards came today! @freewater25 @skategodonwheel @vacancy_art #619 #SD #sandiego #cali #calilife #california #socal #igerssandiego #thisissandiego #ftm #trans #transguys #transman #queer #transbeard #beards #lumbersexual #boyswithglasses #skategodonawheel #skate #skateboard #skateboarding #goskate #skateeveryday #vacancyart #godonawheel #charliewarhol

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Five years ago today I had top surgery. Here’s the vlog from the morning of surgery.