ch.118

If you do not know how to take care of yourself, and the violence in you, then you will not be able to take care of others. You must have love and patience before you can truly listen to your partner or child. If you are irritated you cannot listen. You have to know how to breath mindfully, embrace your irritation and transform it. Offer ONLY understand and compassion to your partner or child - This is the true practice of love.
—  Thích Nhất Hạnh
Just by breathing deeply on your anger, you will calm it. You are being mindful of your anger, not suppressing it…touching it with the energy of mindfulness. You are not denying it at all. When I speak about this to psychotherapists, I have some difficulty. When I say that anger makes us suffer, they take it to mean that anger is something negative to be removed. But I always say that anger is an organic thing, like love. Anger can become love. Our compost can become a rose. If we know how to take care of our compost…Anger is the same. It can be negative when we do not know how to handle it, but if we know how to handle our anger, it can be very positive. We do not need to throw anything away,” (50).

i know it’s quite different from how this all ends in the manga, but much of the key elements are there (Hide’s status is unknown/M.I.A, there’s an implied faceoff between Kaneki and Arima, and the episode ends with Touka re-opening shop with “re:” which both says that this isn’t over and, hopefully, that the sequel will be picked up…either that, or it’s just a nod to the sequel, i have yet to determine which.)

but, that’s not what i’m interested in.

this episode was very quiet. it emphasized the point of loss, closure, and continuity in the motifs of snow (snow indicating the sorrow and the fact that nothing will be the same after), and in the flickering of sunlight (the flicker of happiness in past memories).

most of all, though, we spend almost five minutes just watching Kaneki walk, checking on Hide (even though he’s dead god why) on the occasion while heading right into a plethora of dead bodies and even knowing the risk of doing it.

why?

because if this means they can be together in the end he doesn’t care what happens to him anymore. this is closure that i think he’s needed all along.

tl;dr: this episode got me fucked up, i’m crying, and HideKane is fuckin’ canon.