Okay. I’m gonna write a thing now that’s not gonna be so popular for certain people. By certain people, I mean the fans of Ben Howard.
I don’t know if people even are gonna read this, but I don’t care, because I need this to get out of my head.
I’m worried. Something has happened with Ben, and I want to talk about it. I love I Forget Where We Were. It’s a fantastic album. It’s raw, has pure emotions from the first tune til the last one, and honesty, but something isn’t right.
But I’m not gonna talk about Ben’s music. I’m not gonna touch that subject, cause his music will always be in my heart, it will always help me when bad things happen and it will always be perfect in my ears.
But I’m worried for the person, the human, Ben Howard. The Ben Howard who I saw the first time in 2012 on a festival I Gothenburg, a warm day in august, who talked to the audience, made jokes, and laughed, has in some ways… disappeared. When I saw him in November last year, here in Stockholm – I could see something wasn’t right. He barely talked to the audience, but when he did, he said rude things. He’s a human, he’s allowed to not be on top, I know that – but still, something bugs me.
MY PROBLEM IS that some people on here is treating Ben like a God, and yeah, sure, call him that, But you need to realise that Ben is a human, just like everyone else. He has a perfect voice, and the way he plays guitar is just marvellous, but as a human, he’s not perfect… (No one is)
People over here has quoted Ben from his interview in Q Magazine, so I bought the magazine and read the article and got… shocked and scared.
Here on Tumblr, all people are talking about is his perfect quotes like: “The more we develop as humans, the more we get annoyed with other people”.
But in the interview, Ben doesn’t show up for the second part of it, he calls a photographer a cunt and flip his personalty in a total different direction in the middle of the first part of the interview and starts talking shit about journalists as a group of workers. In the same interview, later, the journalist talks with Ben’s manager, and the manager replies that he has resigned as manager for Ben cause he’s tired of Ben’s attitude. I haven’t seen one post about these events. NONE. And this is frightening me, cause there’s a difference between Ben Howard as a person and human, and his music, and some people doesn’t seem to understand that and puts Ben on a pedestal and ignores the bad things he says and does.
Yesterday, Chris Bond said that he and his brother no longer will play with Ben, and my heart just broke. The Bond brothers has been in Ben’s band since the beginning. It was Ben, India and the Bond brothers. And now… they’re quitting.
People are starting to leave Ben, and I’m afraid that India soon will leave him too. Maybe I’m just pessimistic, maybe I just imagine this, but something isn’t right, and I know that this will hurt his music. Or at least I think it will.
And I’m gonna write this, and people may call me a “fake fan” for it (But I can assure you that I’m not) but…
I love love love Ben Howard’s music. I care about Ben, I do, but I don’t love him as much as I love his music.